Apart from losing the magic do you think it had any other negative affect on you physically or mentally? This is what I'm most scared of...
I do, I felt dumber , like my logical skills were impaired for quite some time-esp the few months following. I took another dose after about four months from the abuse, and the magic only lastly very briefly, but it was there- the roll was skill there for many manys, the euphoria, and the afterglow lasted the next day I remember but that magic feeling was super brief and thats the last time I seemed to have experience it. I waited two more months again(same batch) and didnt get anything but stimulation so in my experience using too much 100% uses up the magic. My first two rolls were magical bliss for many straight hours, next few ehhh okay, I wasnt educated and did stupid shit, like snort 1/4 a pill and take a half, whenever i felt like it-wish I knew then what i know now.
Once every 3 months is the sweeet spot, every 4 is even better
I agree three months minimum to preserve the magic optimally, and you want the magic to always be optimal. I think think it made my brain not work as good as it was supposed to, that said, after a long long break , for me 3-4 years, I think my neurons or whatever strengthened and connected again. but in all id say a six month break it was maybe 80-90% back to normal-my brain chsmity, the remaining 10 % just took longer- I culd be wrong but its me just guessing how my body possibly felt at the time
Be okay if you dont get the chance to roll with friends you feel comfortable rolling with , or the right setting to save up for when you can. Theres nothing worst than wasting a night of rolling in a bad settling-I did it way too much. So dont be afraid ,yes afraid, to wait 5 plus years if the opportunity doesnt arise. mdma will keep otent as long as your alive and for many decades to come
A club with friends with Dance/trance music are the best, in my experience-i actually prefer this over being initimate with a girl-of course I think you have have both but if I had to pick one or the other, Id choose clubbing with fanaastic music- brb gringing on the girls while rolling showing them how I hump, and just dancing with everyone with music of pure bliss, and a feeling of love I never want to end -im in heaven .
in that context I was 19-20 doing this, and now that im 15 years older and have a girlfriend so I couldnt do that or id feel horrible so no grindng now a days unless its her