4meSM
Bluelighter
Ok so if your depression is that bad (with suicidal ideation) then your situation is quite more complex than being addicted to methylphenidate.I am taking Sertraline for depression, 300 mg a day, been 3-4 months I'm not sure how much better it has made me. The doctor that prescribed it also prescribed Olanzapine and Clonidine which I later realized probably was to inhibit stimulant psychosis and heart problems with such high dose of Ritalin I'm abusing. she believes that unless I'm hospitalized, I should taper Ritalin slowly as it can worsen my depression to degrees that could be dangerous (becoming suicidal an all). she is not at all agreeing with my current plan as well, since it's 2 weeks off and I wont have access to her if anything goes wrong. she was like if you're doing it it's on you and has nothing to do with me. she believes I should be hospitalized, and if not that then any change must be done very slowly
Unfortunately I don't really have the time to elaborate right now (and honestly wouldn't know how to address the whole thing) but now it makes sense why you need extremely high doses of methylphenidate. It's partly because olanzapine is actually blocking its dopaminergic effects, meaning you need to take way more in an attempt to compensate.