How long to recover from this level of meth use?

[Stimfreak2234]

I am an 18 year old male. Turned 18 in august 2021 for reference. I first used an amphetamine specifically adderall October 2020, and loved the high. I continued to use them every 3-4 days staying up one night on 60-80 milligrams. I continued this until about January when I tried meth for the first time. Starting late January I was doing meth everyday, only snorting at this point. One or two lines early in the day and sleeping 3-4 hours every night. But I’m mid febuary I started staying up all night watching porn, which progressed to sometimes 2 nights followed by 24 hours of sleep in march. I’m April i started smoking and would stay up a night or two smoking all day long throughout April. I quit may 5 and smoked weed all day from may to august 12 when I relapsed and smoked for 1 day. Then stayed sober one month and did adderall 2 nights in September then one more month sober. I then smoked again October 3/4 and had a bad experience no euphoria, extreme anxiety and feeling horrible. I have been sober for 4 months from everything besides prescription gabepentin. What can I do at this point? I feel so mentally I’ll from the drug use is there any hope left? Or did I waste my life?

 

[darvocet21]

I am an 18 year old male. Turned 18 in august 2021 for reference. I first used an amphetamine specifically adderall October 2020, and loved the high.

How odd to meet someone waiting till they're seventeen before trying amphetamines. You are a dark horse. That's a compliment.

I continued to use them every 3-4 days staying up one night on 60-80 milligrams.

Adderal is my least favorite of the prescription stims excluding desoxyn— prescription meth which is so rare that illicit drug dealers don't even bother to issue fake ones.

It's an aggressive drug with too much of a physical component. Plus there's inconsistency between different generics. That 60 to 80 mg depending on the manufacturer could be much weaker. Then one of the moderators on here suggested I ask my doctor about dexedrine™ whether it was right for me and ever since that time I've been like one of those people in the TV commercial playing outside with their family in the park on a sunny day not a care in the world

I continued this until about January when I tried meth for the first time. Starting late January I was doing meth everyday, only snorting at this point. One or two lines early in the day and sleeping 3-4 hours every night. But I’m mid febuary I started staying up all night watching porn, which progressed to sometimes 2 nights followed by 24 hours of sleep in march.

Sounds like you were managing it the way that I wished I could. I like how the lines last longer which seems to mitigate the inherent compulsion to do more. Especially in relation to sex... I've been there after 48 hours holding my dick and wondering why.

Carly Simon has a song called anticipation. Probably she wasn't singing about chemsex but to me it's all about avoiding reality by anticipating a better more sensuous and loving and erotic and horny reality.

I’m April i started smoking and would stay up a night or two smoking all day long throughout April. I quit may 5 and smoked weed all day from may to august 12 when I relapsed and smoked for 1 day. Then stayed sober one month and did adderall 2 nights in September then one more month sober. I then smoked again October 3/4 and had a bad experience no euphoria, extreme anxiety and feeling horrible. I have been sober for 4 months from everything besides prescription gabepentin. What can I do at this point? I feel so mentally I’ll from the drug use is there any hope left? Or did I waste my life?

I think that you're doing it. You're being honest and you're sharing your experience. You can go to Crystal Meth Anonymous meetings although that's probably too good a place to score.

Sounds like you're being too hard on yourself you're only 18. Sure life is going through a bad patch however you have a lot more self insight than I did at that age. You just discovered a cul-de-sac I think it's better to do that now then in your 40s or 50s

Also don't overlook the perspective that cannabis gives you, I'm sure you haven't

 

[Stimfreak2234]

How odd to meet someone waiting till they're seventeen before trying amphetamines. You are a dark horse. That's a compliment.



Adderal is my least favorite of the prescription stims excluding desoxyn— prescription meth which is so rare that illicit drug dealers don't even bother to issue fake ones.

It's an aggressive drug with too much of a physical component. Plus there's inconsistency between different generics. That 60 to 80 mg depending on the manufacturer could be much weaker. Then one of the moderators on here suggested I ask my doctor about dexedrine™ whether it was right for me and ever since that time I've been like one of those people in the TV commercial playing outside with their family in the park on a sunny day not a care in the world


Sounds like you were managing it the way that I wished I could. I like how the lines last longer which seems to mitigate the inherent compulsion to do more. Especially in relation to sex... I've been there after 48 hours holding my dick and wondering why.

Carly Simon has a song called anticipation. Probably she wasn't singing about chemsex but to me it's all about avoiding reality by anticipating a better more sensuous and loving and erotic and horny reality.



I think that you're doing it. You're being honest and you're sharing your experience. You can go to Crystal Meth Anonymous meetings although that's probably too good a place to score.

Sounds like you're being too hard on yourself you're only 18. Sure life is going through a bad patch however you have a lot more self insight than I did at that age. You just discovered a cul-de-sac I think it's better to do that now then in your 40s or 50s

Also don't overlook the perspective that cannabis gives you, I'm sure you haven't

How long to recover from this to be honest?

 

[darvocet21]

I don't know. I'm not you. But you're showing some really good self control and I'm wondering if it's maybe other issues in your life that have you hyper fixating on something that you've tried and you've had your ups and downs with like everybody does. But it's good that you're not taking it now if it doesn't work for you. Read the stimulants threads on blue light you'll see how many people who realize it doesn't work for them still use it

 

[Keif' Richards]

@Stimfreak2234 try not to freak out too much right now. A lot of what's going on with your head right now, you just need to sit tight and wait for it to end, which is bullshit, I know. You most certainly have not wasted your life. You probably haven't completely wasted this month if you play your cards right and work hard physically and mentally.

Your usage wouldn't be considered especially heavy. People stay up for 3 weeks straight on Methamphetamine routinely. To stay up for 5 days without sleep is nothing for a heavy user. I know many people from Bluelight and my life who are or have been chronic Methamphetamine users. I will say that it's an incredibly destructive substance based upon what I know and have seen. You're basically approaching a precipice in your life that you need to be extremely mindful of. There is no "just one more time" because with Meth, as you've seen, the cravings often turn that "one time" into months or years of chronic usage.

You're clean now and have a chance to walk away from all of this unscathed with some cool stories to tell. You probably won't tell the stories about compulsively jacking off for 48 straight hours, but you can talk about other shit. The rate of your recovery is going to be dependent upon several things, time being the most important. Treating your body and mind well right now will help you get better faster too. Try to eat as healthy as possible, hydrate, hydrate, hydrate, make sure you're getting your nutritional requirements and also try to get good sleep.

The short answer is that you'll be fine if you stop now and go no further. The ball is entirely in your court, not in Meth's court.

 

[Snafu in the Void]

How long to recover from this to be honest?

there is no accurate timeline for these sorts of things, could be weeks, months, years, and if you start focusing on it too much instead of focusing on being healthy, it's only going to cause more distress

Keif and darvocet have you some excellent advice here

I remember when I had my mental break, I kept thinking it was permanent damage... it made the experience infinitely more scary and difficult. You gotta have hope, assume you will get better and the chances are in your favor they will. I made an almost complete recovery, but it did take some time.

Remember man, you are still very young and your body is incredibly resilient, however don't take that as an excuse to keep doing drugs either

 

[Byzek]

I started doing drugs at the age of 26.
Started initally with meth and xtc.
I smoked meth hardly for 6 months then stopped and then did it after 4 month just twice and stopped.
Welll in my opinion its better to start with antidepressant and find good social life.
That helped me.
Now meth is comoletely gone of my life.
I did ot since then twice orr so but it does not matter.
Just have good friends no drug friends

 

[Atomic_Decay]

@Stimfreak2234 you are doing really well at present to get your 4 months abstinence in and your mind and body will have undergone a great deal of recovery in that period. You are well on your way to being fully recovered. Don’t worry and just be a little bit patient. Years ago I once did a 6 month straight daily IV meth binge and I got over it in maybe 4 months once I stopped using.

My advice, for what it is worth is focus on developing natural dopamine/psychological pleasures. I took up ocean swimming and went same time every day. First day I lasted about 5 minutes but gradually worked my way up to more than an hour. I totally forgot every meth misery while I was swimming and always felt a happy glow for a couple of hours afterwards once I got going. Second thing is get a hobby that is both physical and mental (not something online) as you get pleasure from acquiring new skills a little bit each day it makes the meth misery and meth craving go away also. I picked up the guitar. I never got very good at it, but it sure helped with my recovery.

Good luck.

 

[Byzek]

Sport is best for everything