It really makes me sad when people view methadone like that. I understand why people do but if your so hell bent on getting off it before your even on it you will not have an easy time recovering. It is vital that you understand this is going to take time and you need to trust that YOU will know when its time to come off. I have noticed in my recovery and even my g/f there comes a point where you feel like you dont need methadone and you are only getting it because it is a remnant of a past life and eventually that thought will make you get off of it or on the other hand you may realize you need to be on methadone for life I cant tell you what you will discover about yourself in recovery but I do know if you have preconceived notions of what recovery is for you, you may not fair too well, even if it is your second time around. From personal experience this is my second round of recovery, this one is taking longer then the first one and I COULD NOT do suboxone this round. I got clean off of 8 months of subs and stayed that way for 2 years sub and opiate free. Hell drug free but crack (lol) and weed but no opiates at all. Then i relapsed went harder then ever and suboxone would not help the cravings at all so i opted for methadone this round. Had I held the same notion i did "subs are the only way methadone is a life sentence" I probably wouldnt be clean and i got my g/f on methadone after i found out people dont know what they are talking about.
She owes her life to methadone. We have been together for about 6 years and i was clean for 2 years, she never got clean. We discovered opiates together after a year of IV dope i got on subs got clean and stayed taht way for 2 years total and she used the whole time. She had a bad reaction to subs and still took them for a month but stopped and thought she could never get clean. I stayed with her because i love her and shes above dope she just needed something and that was methadone. She went from a 300 dollar a week habit that was destroying us to a 0 dollar a week habit and having a great life. Because of methadone. She went to 90 in January and is at 20 now and they wont let her drop as fast as she wants. She is considering telling them to fuck off and never going back because she is strong enough now, because we havent thought about dope in 8 months. She is going to tell them she doesnt mind dropping by 3mg a week or every other week but they can not tell her "only 2mg every other week" I know she will be ok.
God if only i could show you what life was like before she went. How many times she cried saynig she would be a junkie forever and she should kill herself. How she was an emotional mess and now only 8 months later she is a strong confident individual. Her therapist nearly fell out of his chair when he saw her after 3 months. She went from 70lb to 110lb with muscle and more importantly a menstrual cycle she wears nice clothes and is trying to get a job.
Methadone saved my girlfriend and by extension it saved me. All I ever wanted was to know she could be safe if anything happened to me or that my tiny life insurance policy I got was split between my mom and her because as the only one with a job if i died she needed some money to hopefully save herself with all the things i worried about our future are now not even a concern. Please dont view methadone like a bad thing, if you could only see with your eyes what i have.