I'm glad to see down to 4mg like I said there's no way you needed that16mg they told you..and you said a month isn't long enough..man no time is long enough..you will always have that monkey on your back...
that's cause he wants your money..RM doc actually sounds good..he knows the longer your on the more you just trade your dope habit for a bupe habit..so his doc sayin he wants to get him off in a month th is cool...your doctor sayin stay in iit as long as you need, sounds kind of shady and really just wants your cash..I mean any type of rehab they have you set goals as to when you want to stop..and your doc is like do what you want as long as your payin me..I mean if you do this program for a year and he does it for 1month..that's 11months worth of dr appoints you pay for that he's not..
Cuz, maybe it's just all the liquor I been drinkin or maybe not, but yo I can tell you never had no serious dope habbit and if you did that shit is a forgotten memory. You sayin that shit "I'm glad to see you down below 16mg" cuz, I don't know if you think I'm lyin or what, but I'm sayin at first the 16mg wasn't even keepin me from some of the WD like sneezin, watery eyes, gaggin shit like that.
And the doc actually tried to only give me (and everybody else there) 8mg a day, but I told em like yo I'm still sick as fuck and that if they sent me outta there like that there was no way I wasn't coppin before I went home. Ain't like they was gave me 16mg a day and kicked me out the door, I was there for like 8 hours.
Now the 4mg is almost cool, cuz like I said from the jump I wasn't plannin on stayin on 16mg I knew once it stabilized in my body I'd be able to drop it down. But I mean yo like my habbit and yours is like 2 diff caterogies of addiction, and I absolutely ain't sayin that shit tryin to be like "I do more dope then you I'm cooler" cuz I fuckin wish I could get high off 4 or 5 bags, I'm sayin it on the tip like walk a mufuckin mile in my shoes. Ain't no fuckin way I could go till 6 without gettin high or skip a day or whatever and that ain't mufuckin self control that's cuz I be in some ready to kill somebody type WD's. I know you don't get that bad or whatever and that's cool I'm glad for you, but like I said walk a mile in my shoes then tell ya self you should be takin 4mg the first few days when 4mg barely make you feel better then grippin up the pistol and blowin your fuckin head off.
As far as the doc bein in it for the money, of course he fuckin is. No offense to RM meant at all by this but I'd like to see his doc's relapse rates, just cuz the monthly shit and by all means I hope the shit work out for RM and anybody else on that shit but yo I started subs last week and if I was comin off half way thru May, I bet by June 1st I'd be fuckin strung out again. Shit, its hard as hell right now and that's without the pressure of knowin "in the next few weeks I'll never have an opiate again" If I only wanted to be on a month, my doc would taper me off. But he lets me decide, which I respect, cuz his ass don't know when I'm completely ready to give up dope I'm the only mufucker that knows that. There was some old head in there doin a 2 week taper, but when the doc asked me how long I wanted to be on I said however long it takes til I feel ready.
Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if that doc was doin the monthly thing so he gets a new 100 patients every month and gets to charge them the induction fee which is usually like double the fee of the "check up" appointments or whatever cost.
You keep sayin "trade a dope addiction for a sub addiction" There's a huge fuckin difference between bein strung out and bein dependent on somethin. I can get subs from the pharmacy and they're fuckin crazy cheap, I don't have to walk around strapped up all day pockets fulla bundles tryin to make a couple hundred so I can make it thru the fuckin day, it's NOTHING like dope addiction besides you take somethin to get you thru the day. But you take sub in the mornin and forget about it, you ain't doin it at 10am, then again at noon, then 4 or 5 more times that day. And like I said, the grimey shit you do to get dope aint nothin like gettin sub. This whole months script + doc appointment is cheaper then me gettin high for 2 days.
I know mufuckers gon take this like I'm tryna brag I had some crazy habbit, but on the real I ain't never been more embarassed about some shit in my life and if this wasn't the internet I wouldn't even be sayin the shit. And I ain't tryna come off harsh or nothin cuz far as the internet go I fuck with you chinky it's just some times the shit you say is more like assumptions then fact.