each time i experience mysticism*, it's more profound than the previous. it seems to build on itself.
each time, my mind feels "complete", where everything is in place, and everything is "in control" (but i realize that i have no real control, it's a chemical illusion, at the same time).
i experience realizations that normally would take a lot longer to reach, because normally my thoughts are more narrow, wandering, or whatever.
i experience a profound sense of peace and bliss, and i often wonder if there is some way to convey the feeling. i even wonder, each time i enter the experience, if there is some way to store the feeling in my memory so that i can fully appreciate it while in "normal headspace". that sort of thing cannot be accurately recorded into our memories.
these mystical experiences are a huge driving force in my life, keeping me going forward. they help guide me toward that elusive "happiness", and their memories have a profound impact on my beliefs and behavior.
the usual way i induce these experiences is cannabis, but set/setting/chemistry all have to click into place. sometimes i can achieve this state for a few hours, sometimes a few minutes. sometimes i can achieve it multiple times per week, sometimes cannabis just increases my hedonistic drive. sometimes cannabis is not needed.
your mileage will vary, obviously. i seem quite sensitive to psychedelic effects (ever since an LSA trip many years ago, my entire visual system has changed, to where the world is intensely beautiful. i could try to convey how, but it wouldn't do it justice). most people need shrooms/LSD to induce these states.
i believe that we can do things with our brains that we previously thought impossible... i believe that we can, from the top down (from our consciousness) control and observe pathways of thought and emotion (those two, imo, are intertwined enough to be essentially the same process)... and as we learn more about these pathways of thought and experience, the learning builds on itself, making the next experience even more amazing.
each "trip" is completely different than other trips. commonalities between trips exist, though: an overwhelming appreciation for being alive and everything that i have; an overwhelming sense of motivation; an increase in hedonism; a sense of being in the moment and where i'm supposed to be; and a drastic increase in creativity when writing or programming or drawing or designing.
* i don't believe it's "supernatural", i believe it's neurochemical in nature... if our brains are capable of piecing together our subjective reality from mere electronic signals... then our brains are capable of making our world appear magical...
but it is still chemistry, even if it feels (literally) like i'm receiving divine inspiration from another entity.
divinity lies within.