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How Good is Your Opiate / Opioid Consumption Willpower?

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Just out of curiosity, I thought it'd be interesting to see how strong your guys' willpower is when it comes to consuming / moderating your consumption of opiates & opioids. Personally, I've found that I can moderate my consumption rather well if I'm prescribed something, especially because I know it's a long-term treatment that I will need to get another prescription for once the script runs out.

With any opiate or opioid I've gotten that I'm not prescribed, however, my self-control and willpower tends to drop significantly. Maybe it's because I don't have other meds of a similar strength / quality prescribed at the moment, but I feel like I'll end up going through meds like pez candy without planning on it.

Strangely, it's not that I feel like I'm "chasing a high," but more like I just don't care. Part of me would rather take higher amounts for a fewer number of days to avoid WD severity once the meds are gone, which adds to it, but I definitely know most people try to stretch out their last "x-number of pills / meds" in order to taper down.

So, just out of curiosity, how do you guys feel about your consumption rate / willpower of opiates and opioids? Are you guys comfortable with how fast you go through meds, or do you feel like you just get caught up and consume them faster than you'd like non-deliberately?
 
I would say 4/5.

I still crave opiates and give in to the cravings. I am able to save doses and not touch them for days. I don't do everything I have all at once unless it's the only way to get high. My opiate willpower is strong. If offered for free though, I'm not sure there is a situation where I wouldn't take it.
 
When I was using opiates about three/four years ago, I'd say about a 3/5. I would try to limit it to weekends and special occasions but found myself randomly leaving work to cop and doing them about 3-4 times a week. It's weird, I HATE opiates now, and love stimulants. Weird how everybody is different huh???
 
2/5. I haven't used anything other then suboxone in weeks but I crave oxy and dope all the damn time. When I have opiates on me I use them up as fast as possible.
 
I always save something for the morning when I get something good. But apart from that, my tolerance is large and whenever I have something, I use it.
 
I buy me one 40mg oxy a week, and have been doing so for a few months now. Old formulation, too, we don't get the new crap in Australia.

I have to admit, I started off only snorting 20mg a day and then 20mg the next day. That doesn't happen anymore, and I'm slowly starting to crave hard for more opiates the second the pill goes up my nose, but still make sure I never actually end up wandering back to buy another.

Either way, it's still just one a week. I'd say my opi willpower is pretty strong and sexy.
 
Start off very slow n steady but then it seems to escelate due to tolerance. Also it seems if i dont have any it becomes easy to moderate:-)
 
Ill have my 55mg methadone dose in the morning and try my hardest not to use dope all day, or at least until just before i go to sleep. But usually around 6/7 i start craving a shot and try to pop half a mg of xanax and that curbs the cravings. Dumb idea, i know, its just going to dig me a deeper hole eventually. Thank god i dont have a regular benzo connect. But its not like theyre hard to find. But i find myself preferring a xanax over a mid day shot now. And its 1/10th the price of a shot, because doing two shots a day is pricey for me, id rather spend that on things i enjoy like clothes or shopping.

Its funny because i used to not give a fuck if i spent my last dime on dope, all i cared about was being high. Now everytime i do a shot i think well i couldve bought this and this or this etc.
 
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if i have a large amount, i'll go through it super quickly. but if it's my last few pills (1-3) before i can get more, i will save them for as long as necessary. i'll go through full withdrawal before i take that last pill.

i have no idea why.
 
Normally I have very short binge sessions about once a year, so I'd say overall my will power is very good for the most part. But then when it comes to the few days that I decide to partake in opiate consumption I find myself having trouble to stop, but eventually everything subsides. I guess we all have a problem though when it comes down to it.
 
My tolerance is ridiculous now. have to take over 100 mgs of oxy at once to feel a "lift". Over 160 to get high. My discipling FUCKtuates. Some days my pains okay friends are around im destracted - i take less. Other days my physical pain is crazy and my emotional pain unbearable ill be poppin OC 80s until im out(asleep).
 
Opiates + willpower = error, not found :p

First tried Oxy circa 2003 in college. Didn't know what I was getting myself into. Up to that point I was a responsible drug user / typical college kid, just smoking herb / drinking / tripping& raving on occasional weekends.

Progressed from a relaxing Satuday with a 20mg to using throughout the week, up to 40s and 80s. Driving 6 hours round-trip for pills. Went from eating to snorting; Tried to shoot a pill once, thankfully failed (a line I swore i'd never cross)

Since then I've never had self-control for any substance; have abused everything I can get ahold of.

Hard to type this now, after not using OCs for 8 years I just managed to locate some 80s. Thought the new formula meant they'd be worthless, turns out they work just fine. Have used 40mg 3 of the last 4 days, can't afford this at all.

At least its helping me quit other drugs, cos they just can't compare.
Never have run across heroin. Only reason I never hit rock bottom is a lack of supply, I'm extremely antisocial & work respectable jobs in drug-free workplaces, so these opportuniies are few & far between
 
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I have a love/ hate relationship with opiates. I was doing Oxy's until a year ago since I kept almost overdosing on them plus I did not like the high. I love tar but (and for the good) it's hard to find or the place to go is now too dangerous.

I used to use for 2 days on and 2 days off and that worked well until another friend and I started using together and it got out of control.
 
used to be shit willpower when I was a dope addict. Recently though, my willpower tends to be weaker when work is coming up and I need something since I am going to be standing all day. When I am off of work though and have a couple off days, even if I feel any withdrawal symptoms(if I do), whether they're mild or moderate(trying not to get severe withdrawals like I used to), I'll go cold turkey to prevent myself from becoming a junkie like the good(not) ol' days. As long as I have at least 2 days off, I can manage work sober and can wait. That's until if I get paid and over indulge. I'll save a bump for emergencies, but I feel that psychological addiction comes into play quite often, so I do have to keep my guard up.
 
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