SphynxCG
Bluelighter
I talk to myself in my head all day long. Its very near impossible to quiet my own voice. I am continually conversing with myself about whats going on - correcting myself, announcing plans, even getting angry.
But when I speak it is a direct translation of my thought pattern. Basically I am literally "thinking aloud" because for the majority of the time there is no middle point between my thought and my speech. If I choose to, I can narrate other thoughts in the background as I speak; it is simply not what comes naturally to me.
So yes I always have at least one voice continually speaking in my mind. I think of the voice in my head as a different person kinda, because it speaks differently than I do. When I'm angry or frustrated, it definitely gets hectic. After 5 days up on meth, it was absolute chaos. I would start to get ahold of myself, then just get torn down by some other realization that popped into my head.
The direct thought process is not always good though because I basically have no ability to stop thinking about something. Because of the fact that I regularly have 2+ voices in my head, if I make one of them stop talking about it, the other one will chime in and remind me. This can be devastating on bad trips, as you can imagine.
But when I speak it is a direct translation of my thought pattern. Basically I am literally "thinking aloud" because for the majority of the time there is no middle point between my thought and my speech. If I choose to, I can narrate other thoughts in the background as I speak; it is simply not what comes naturally to me.
So yes I always have at least one voice continually speaking in my mind. I think of the voice in my head as a different person kinda, because it speaks differently than I do. When I'm angry or frustrated, it definitely gets hectic. After 5 days up on meth, it was absolute chaos. I would start to get ahold of myself, then just get torn down by some other realization that popped into my head.
The direct thought process is not always good though because I basically have no ability to stop thinking about something. Because of the fact that I regularly have 2+ voices in my head, if I make one of them stop talking about it, the other one will chime in and remind me. This can be devastating on bad trips, as you can imagine.