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How does *your* brain work?

I talk to myself in my head all day long. Its very near impossible to quiet my own voice. I am continually conversing with myself about whats going on - correcting myself, announcing plans, even getting angry.

But when I speak it is a direct translation of my thought pattern. Basically I am literally "thinking aloud" because for the majority of the time there is no middle point between my thought and my speech. If I choose to, I can narrate other thoughts in the background as I speak; it is simply not what comes naturally to me.

So yes I always have at least one voice continually speaking in my mind. I think of the voice in my head as a different person kinda, because it speaks differently than I do. When I'm angry or frustrated, it definitely gets hectic. After 5 days up on meth, it was absolute chaos. I would start to get ahold of myself, then just get torn down by some other realization that popped into my head.

The direct thought process is not always good though because I basically have no ability to stop thinking about something. Because of the fact that I regularly have 2+ voices in my head, if I make one of them stop talking about it, the other one will chime in and remind me. This can be devastating on bad trips, as you can imagine.
 
AE are you exceptionally intelligent compared to your peers? at least academically, (excluding verbal skills)

I cant help but apply this to eastern religion.... which would say that you are just a very old soul.
 
I'm often seen as intelligent, and I suppose I am quite smart when it comes to logical problem-solving (one has to be, to be a prorgammer lol). I was very good at maths and chemistry at school too, but I only just scraped through English...

What do you mean by an 'old soul'? Do you mean someone whose spirit has been reincarnated many times?
 
yeah... that would be an old soul. The final state of reincarnation would be into brahman, which is the universal tone. An older soul, or someone who is closer to this final stage would be less concerned with language (something that constantly keeps the mind distracted from the sort of clearheadedness that meditation offers, and more concerned with how everything fits together. When everything is put into place then you can simplify everything into a part of this one understanding. That understanding would offer mental clarity which could be compared to the concept of brahman.

perhaps you are just really close to the goal and all the younger souls around you have found a lable for your difference.

I have found that I and my relatives are often more able to see big picture things.. such as programming, which my dad does. I'v also noticed since reading your thread, that when i'm pondering big picture ideas my inner monologue is gone. I'm just trying to point out that often a greater understanding of the world leads to a quieter mind... a basis of eastern religion
 
This thread is really interesting because it's something I've thought about a lot. I remember when my brother was a baby (so I must have been about 5) asking my dad if babies dreamt. When he told me they did I remember being confused, thinking that if they couldn't talk and use language, how could they dream, or even think? I think babies can understand language and put it together in their heads long beofre they speak, but there still must be a time when everyone thinks simply in ideas and pictures. I know that whenever I dream it isn't in words, but when I'm awake my thoughts are often a voice which is like a story... like what someone would read if someone wrote a story of every second of my life, in third person and all...
 
^^^ sort of a new direction... but just imagine if through meditaion you could turn off your inner monlogue while awake. Do you think you would be more in the moment. Do you think your dream like experience of the world would be more fulfilling and more intense? For one to truly live in the moment, he must beable to see through his eyes rather than through a conscious understanding that looms around you and pictures your interaction with the world. It's the difference b/w seeing the world (being in the moment) and picturing yourself in the world (being too anylitical)
 
I was recently diagnosed by a psychiatrist with Asperger's syndrome too. It's actually a very mild form of autism that doesn't include any language impairment. Glad to know I'm not the only one here with this problem.

People with Asperger's have the same core problem as all other autistic people: they are MIND BLIND. In other words, they cannot easily tell what other people are thinking and feeling. It is very difficult for us to figure out why people do and say what they do, and to predict how they will react to what we say and do.

Autistic people cannot easily grasp SITUATIONS. A neurotypical (normal) person will perceive a detail, and immediately begin drawing connections between that detail and other details in the surrounding situation. Autistic people will instead draw connections between that detail and similar details in OTHER situations. We think vertically, across sitations, rather than laterally, around one whole situation at a time.

One hallmark of people with mild autism is obsessions with things. We'll decide we like something, and then learn every little fact there is to learn about it, to the annoyance and bafflement of people who know us and want to have normal conversations with us. My biggest and longest lasting obsession was traditional Japanese culture. I've also been obsessed with (in chronological order) the character Big Bird from Sesame Street, dinosaurs, trains, antique American coins, animal taxonomy, and psychotropic drugs.

One thing that makes me confident about medical school is the fact that I can memorize names and facts like a fiend. You'll never see me utter as much as a chuckle at an episode of "Friends", though. I just don't get situational comedy.
 
^^^ RawEvil, do you use ecstasy? For me, one thing that made me decide I really like ecstasy is the fact that it COMPLETELY SHUTS OFF my normally gushing stream of consciousness. I don't think at all when I'm on it -- just perceive and feel. That's a very refreshing break for me.
 
^^ Well-put.

I am somewhat obsessed with Sci-fi and anything futuristic. My complete and total obsession, however, is with computers. I love anything and everything to do with computers, programming, video games, networking, etc. I also have more than a knack for maths and chemistry (I really should have done a science degree instead of programming but I digress)... I can remember chemical formulas, details about organic 'groupings', molecular structures... I probably understand mathematics on a level most people wouldn't be able to comprehend...

I love being able to repeat facts/numbers: MDMA is an abbreviation for methylenedioxymethamphetamine, my PIN is 12 digits long, I know most of my CD-keys, I can recall and explain, at the drop of a hat, exactly why alcohol makes you feel like the room is spinning but isn't (it absorbs into the fluid in your ears, changing its density etc.), I could go on... Facts are great, I just don't get people.

Neurotypicals have a "sixth sense" as Carol Gray puts it. They piece together the body-language and tones of voice into an almost-perfect description of how that person is feeling. I can rarely tell whether somebody is trying to persuade me of something for their own gain, whether they think I'm hot and want my number, or if they are simply talking to me.

I've never had access to any sort of psychoactive substance before (apart from alcohol/caffeine), but I aim to rectify that. I've always wanted to try LSD, I'd give pot a try, but I don't know about ecstasy mainly b/c unless you have a testing kit you don't know what you're getting... If I ever manage to get my hands on a verifiable source, I'd give it a go.

And by the way, don't think of Asperger's as a problem. Seeing as it's with me for life, it's always going to be 'normal' for me. I wouldn't have it any other way.
 
I'm highly intuitive and love learning on my own. I have a knack for going through things and trying to learn everything about them, then getting bored and switching to something else. I'm fanatical about something for a week or two and then I drop it. I also find that I have trouble learning something unless I dive right in and try it out for myself. I can't follow verbal directions and have alot of trouble reading directions also. But once you show me how to do it and I try it, I get it down immediately.

This leads me to alot of trouble in my life. I can never seem to find a girl and stick with her. I do great in school for the first few weeks of a semester and then barely do anything as the months go by.

Generally I over-think everything, but I have very good interpretation of body language, gestures, etc. I know exactly what is happening and what people are usually thinking, because I know how I act in certain situations, and I can apply that to other people.

my personality type is an INTP, if anyone is interested.
 
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