HOW DO YOU SLeEP?!

[forgetti_spogetti]

Yes yes hello, I'm new but I've been following for a while. Explored all kinds of substance abuses myself and only just decided to make the plunge to make my very own account here now.

I'll save you the long journal entry, but I'm just addicted to forgetfulness, because I'm addicted to progress. I work so much, and I also do a lot of drugs. I need things to move me forward - knowing the effects of drugs will set in is the feeling of process, going through a work day and carrying out tasks is a process. I'm addicted to it. I thought I was addicted to alcohol (I am, that's the only legitimate one), clonazepam, cocaine, dexedrine, zopiclone, I fuck with weed. So it's not forward in terms of uppers, it's just forward in terms of Not being Here Now. Yes mindfulness meditation etc but it's true. I can't handle the present because of everything that's happened prior so i find so many different drugs to rush myself forward into different states. I've been doing this for years.

Anyway I'm trying all of the options of therapy to understand this and hopefully eventually get out of this, and this felt like an appropriate introduction. Hello? What teh fuck is this website other than a place I go when I'm fucked up and curious (and don't answer that I read all the documentation, look more to what I wrote, thank u look forward to meeting u). Also excited to get people's zopiclone stories/clonazepam stories.

And yes the title is an LCD soundsystem reference. I wanted the topic to be about the fact that I can't sleep without drugs but I got sidetracked (for another thread, I suppose).

Nice to meet you all in advance.

 

[Ds]

Yes yes hello, I'm new but I've been following for a while. Explored all kinds of substance abuses myself and only just decided to make the plunge to make my very own account here now.

I'll save you the long journal entry, but I'm just addicted to forgetfulness, because I'm addicted to progress. I work so much, and I also do a lot of drugs. I need things to move me forward - knowing the effects of drugs will set in is the feeling of process, going through a work day and carrying out tasks is a process. I'm addicted to it. I thought I was addicted to alcohol (I am, that's the only legitimate one), clonazepam, cocaine, dexedrine, zopiclone, I fuck with weed. So it's not forward in terms of uppers, it's just forward in terms of Not being Here Now. Yes mindfulness meditation etc but it's true. I can't handle the present because of everything that's happened prior so i find so many different drugs to rush myself forward into different states. I've been doing this for years.

Anyway I'm trying all of the options of therapy to understand this and hopefully eventually get out of this, and this felt like an appropriate introduction. Hello? What teh fuck is this website other than a place I go when I'm fucked up and curious (and don't answer that I read all the documentation, look more to what I wrote, thank u look forward to meeting u). Also excited to get people's zopiclone stories/clonazepam stories.

And yes the title is an LCD soundsystem reference. I wanted the topic to be about the fact that I can't sleep without drugs but I got sidetracked (for another thread, I suppose).

Nice to meet you all in advance.

Hey forgetti_spogetti, that's a very unusual name. Is a story behind it?
I feel the same way at times, I work 6, sometimes 7 3rd shifts a week, and really lose track of what day of the month it is, let alone when I do wake up from sleep, I panic because it's dark outside, and I think I over slept(guess my internal clock is set for late).

I do the same exact task every single night, take peoples blood pressures, check in guys to detox, monitor, listen to em sleep n toss n turn. I got it right in front of me, me being an addict doesn't change the way I do things sober, like you mentioned having a habit of doing a process and if the process is different then the way you are used to doing it, something weird happens.
especially when you got that coworker that likes to run the show.

Let's see, Well. I don't want to take the fun from you by exploring the forums. Just browse around, and remember when you make a new thread, that the only stupid question or thread is the one that isn't asked/made.

hope to chat again some time. =)