pofacedhoe
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Had exactly the same experience as some of you guys: took some acid, then smoked a small joint, and even though I used to be super resistant to weed's effects since I smoked very often, it made me go very deep into some sort of panic attack. At that precise time, I really thought the eery impression it gave me on the world, on my friends and on my own thoughts would never go away. For several weeks after that day, I had some pretty intense anxiety about everything, and that anxiety made me even more anxious about myself. I really thought I'd fked myself up. I kind of spiraled down into an existencial crisis, questioning everything I was, everything I thought, even the very nature of reality.
I stopped smoking weed, took back on swimming, and went to see a therapist to do something about the latent anxietyHe gave me a very light treatment (Amisulpride), and the anxiety kind of went away. . I started meditating (Vipassana). I also experienced what one of you called "spiritual depression". I didn't have much will to live anymore. On my 25th birthday, like 3 months after that event, I was depressed to be "old", like all the good times were past me, as if I'd never go back to my "old, na?ve and careless me". But, slowly, the recurrent questions that kept on nibbling started to fade. It's been something like 8 months since that dreaded day and I'm slowly starting to be better.
I still have some "unfinished business" in my mind, some anxieties I haven't come to term with, but it's getting better. Reading all of this also made me feel better. I hope you heal bro, for your sake and mine.
so antipsychotics are a "light treatment"?
what kind of crap is that. sorry but antipsychotics are not light, they are serious drugs with serious side effects.
and i speak as someone who was prescribed them but didn't take them at that time