I spent several years camping up my norco/dilaudid addiction along with klonopin (that's the short story). I found myself in a situation where I didn't have access (family vacation, yeah) to refills. Went through a month long nightmare (vaca was only 10 days, but I figured it was good timing as I knew I needed to find a way to stop). However, I didn't learn my lesson. I soon substituted alcohol for the loss I was feeling. Bad Idea! A couple of years later I found myself in a psych hospital for suicidal thoughts. Well, at least I'm finally going to get some real help, I thought. So they put me on gabapentin. I thought no way that could help. To be honest, I am a medical professional, gabapentin was never considered a problem. I told an MD friend of mine about it and he was really surprised. He said that was a joke, no way gabapentin is going to help. Guess what. It did help. I was amazed! Problem though is now, 4 years down the road, I'm addicted to gabapentin. Sooooooooo..... I am reaching out to anyone out there who has beat gabapentin. I dont want to go through these nightmares again. I am the sole provider for my family. I cant take time off work. I've done that before, it sets my life in a backward motion. I cant keep this up! ANY advice will be appreciated. Thank you so much!