Hey everyone I am 18 and suffer from general anxiety disorder and severe insomnia recently in the last year I have lost a full scholarship to a prestigous university worth almost $140,000 over 4 years because I could not cope with the stress of college I was then going to try to work offshore in a lucrative job but failed the drug test and went through hell and was still not able to get the job because I was on xanax however it was prescribed and I showed documentation. My psychiatrist is worn out and wants to hospitalize me because of how frequently he changes my medication. On top of this Im about to lose the love of my life because she said she simply cannot deal with all of my problems on top of having two parents who are both extremly dissapointed in me my mom is a neurologist and my dad is the chief research officer of a large national pharmaceutical company but also has a medical degree and specialized in psychiatry with an emphasis on addiction and is always giving me hell about how being on benzodiazepines is going to ruin my life and that being on them at 18 is going to ruin my life however without them I am a mess. I dont know what to do with my life Im constantly still having panic attacks even being on 6 different medications and my prn medicine xanax does nothing to help with them aswell as recently being taken off my sleep medication (restoril) I am a complete nervous wreck and feel like I am constantly disappointing my parents aswell as everyone else in my life but I am trying everything in my power to get my life on track I just dont know what to do I just need help do you think being hospitalized is a good option at this point even though my parents are completly against it I know it should be my descion but im on there insurance. I just need advice/help.
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