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Yurideathwalker

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Got some common meds here but I dont think it will end all this. Im not good at chemistry so Idk what to mix or take. So my question what can I take to have a peaceful sleep. A peaceful deep sleep.
 
I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. It would go against our guidelines for anyone to respond to your question about poison but I am not going to close this thread as I feel you could use the support of other people that understand your feelings of despair. Many of us here have or are struggling with suicidal thoughts. The world we humans work so hard at constructing can be harsh and bleak and sometimes for me there is no way to find peace within it. That is when nature opens her arms and offers another view--one in which my life, indeed all human life, is very short, very small. There is a calm place in that knowledge.<3
 
I'm sorry you are feeling this way - I've been there and it's horrible. Why are you feeling so low? How long have you been feeling this way? Is it situational? If you feel comfortable in sharing more details, you may get better feedback.

Without more information, I can say is that these feelings are usually temporary. There are some things you can try to lift your mood. Getting enough sleep, eating healthy, and exercise really help. I absolutely loath exercise, but it does make a difference. I try to walk for an hour a day. If at all possible, try to be around people, even if you don't feel like it. Are you close to your family or have any close friends? Try to distract yourself with something you enjoy. Make a plan to do something tomorrow - anything, and make yourself do it. For years I struggled with depression and feeling powerless. When it would get really terrible, I would would make a list of stuff I wanted to change, and then categorize them by level of difficulty and the amount of time it would take. More complex items that involved multiple steps I would create substeps (bullets). I would then make a point of trying to complete five things a day on that list. Some items were easy and would take an hour, some would take weeks or months to completely finish. I would cross an item off the list as I finished it. The complex items with substeps would be crossed off when all the substeps were complete. The experience was empowering, and really helped me to put in perspective how much control I have in my life. I also felt good about accomplishing stuff, and it would help pull me out of depression. I know it sounds trivial and ridiculous and may not be applicable for you, but it did help me. The point is to consider why you are feeling this way, and try to brainstorm ideas to fix it. It's within your power regardless of whether it's situational or mental, you can take action to improve your situation.

Again, the way you're feeling now is temporary. Circumstances will change and eventually it will get better. I hope to hear back from you, and hope you start feeling better soon.
 
I feel so little, so weak. I am not thinking well. Everyday is pretending to be okay. Every mistakes I make, the judgement is ugh Im out of words rn. Its like they step on you. The one with the same flesh and blood. Everyday I wish I was dead. I love to play ol games. Each time I play is escaping reality and being someone that is loved by other players. The time that I want to be dead, few months ago, I played all day. I played for 12 hrs for 4 days. Also sleep is escaping the real world. So the result is, I got my grades all fail in that time. I kept it a secret till now. Now I feel like this is the end. The time, money, I wasted. I become what they said "useless". Ugh my mind is so weak rn. Im not like this before. Feels like Im about to be a psycho. Apple seeds, its hard to make. I think 8 oz of Isopropyl would be great. I just want it to be clean and just once. Painless, I want it painless. It would be great if you suggest another painless way.
 
The ways you are thinking are in no way painless and not likely to do anything besides liver and other organ damage.

You can either continue as you are going or get some sleep then some healthy food water and get help to live your life.

Its not that hard. Sometimes having family find out about your situation seems worse than death but it isnt so bad. No one is perfect and parents would have had low points and failures too.

Death is not painless. Its not just going to sleep.

Get some rest. No gaming. Actual sleep.
 
I think you should talk to a counselor at your school about your feelings. They can help put you in touch with resources to make you feel better. Staying up late is not helping your situation, and neither is going of game binges. If you want to get better you need to address the underlying issues that are making you feel this way.

No one is going to help you commit suicide, and consuming common household items are just going to injure your body and mind, perhaps permenantly. Please leave the isopropyl alcohol alone, and it's really painful to consume and recover from. I knew a kid years ago that managed to down a bottle rubbing alcohol and he was never right afterwards. It will destroy your esophagus, and cause damage to numerous organ systems including your lungs and you liver. Drinking it is an extremely painful experience. Please get help.
 
1. We can't help you, and don't want you, to commit suicide.

2. There are good options out there to return you back to your "normal" state. I recommend counseling cognitive behavioral counseling (CBT). If you're in school, it should be free.

3. The worst solution to any problem is to just quit. You can do literally anything you want in life, don't waste that opportunity. It's all in your mental outlook.

4. We all wish you well. Feel free to PM me if you need any help, encouragement, someone to rant to etc. Last thing you want is to off yourself and guarantee there be a 0% of making your dreams become reality.

Hang in there, bud.
 
Yuri-you may feel little and weak right now, but you have strength deep down inside you. There is a little light there that is your life force. It's still flickering like a tiny fire.

You are stronger than you think right now. Find that tiny fire and bring it to someone who can talk with you, a friend or a therapist, someone who may not even be a friend but you think is a kind, responsible person.

Your grades are nothing compared to your life. You are not your grades.

Find your little light. Don't let the wind blow it out. You can get through this time in your life. We believe in you. <3
 
Yeah, I can think of ways that must be painless...like you just fade away and it's an option in the back of my mind. Not going to say what it is. I still keep going for now though. Try to find SOMETHING to hold onto. I usually keep a concert in my near future so I have that to look forward to. Or a new album or TV show a date when I'm in the mood, anything at all.

Sometimes we can feel so weak, we don't recognize the strength we actually do have. You can wake up and make a better day for yourself. It sounds impossible during the toughest times, but things can turn around. This takes effort, like getting up early to work out and looking after yourself. Honestly, I'm tired too. Most days I'm just drifting through life, but there are times I fight like hell and feel better for it. Take care of yourself.

Based on your suggestions for suicide, you're just going to hurt yourself so don't take the things you've mentioned because they won't work, trust me. It's like when people say they want to OD on Tylenol or something. It's
not gonna happen. You haven't got it figured out so keep fighting for now and seek help if you haven't before.
 
I would love to thank you all in person If I only can. Im doing better now. It taste like shit so I spit it out. I told them everything. The only reason that I will be dead is my dad. He will kill me lol. I spent my night yesterday somewhere to think. Thats the moment I tried to drink that shit. But now everything is fine. I wanna ask if you know some movies or books that motivates people to be positive. You know. Again thank you all. Deathwalker sounds on point lmao.
 
I'm glad you're feeling better!
There are a bunch of motivational and inspiring movies on Netflix, check them out!
Just take it one day at a time, and if you ever feel depressed and suicidal again, just talk to someone!
Much love to you friend.
 
There's a book called "The Power". It's amazing and very positive. It can really change your attitude. When I started reading it, I felt completely different and really motivated. It changed my life as long as I read it and kept the message in my mind. Please get it. I have it and I need to read it again.
 
I am so happy you're feeling better! Wow0mg is right - just take it one day at a time and try not to overhink stuff or ruminate. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies. I don't have any movie suggestions because I don't really watch movies - can't sit through them, but I find going out and getting some sunshine and being around people helps feel better by not dwelling on my problems. If you need to talk we are here for you.
 
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