really hope you have something in your brain that i didnt kid, hopefully your luck with the law is as unrealistically good as mine though also....go play sports and hang out with your friends while you guys can actually have real fun, those days really are the only good ones. you keep going and you'll get to a point where its a sigh of relief to not be in the middle of some psychotic breakdown where your own head is trying to eliminate itself and it hurts to exist. its no way to live man and very soon you'll be my age with only a bag of dope to show for it, its just not cool when your friends are starting families and your only worry is maintaining your inventory so you assure yourself of not running out because if you do its literally a roll of the dice what could happen. people like that end up 2 ways and you're bright enough to guess what those options are limited to. its not going to get better for you unless you go through some miserable shit first and thats dumping all dope, it really sucks but at 13 that shit will be laughable to you in 5 years when you're on your own and setting yourself up for a career. you have incentive to get off the shit in the form of actual possibilities for your future, when your my age there may be no hope. some of my best friends in life were closer to your age than mine when they died of this shit, we all just thought we were being careful too, it was all fun
and you should stop smoking weed. dont do anything whatsoever, its all or nothing, you cant moderate like someone normal we just arent capable of that with our type of impediment, and dont be fooled its an impediment that is as real as the peach fuzz on your lip, actually its probably more real than that too lol
also dont let people bullshit you into thinking being sober is some blissful amazing experience because its not. its boring. but you know thats a lot better than coming off a week long meth binge and after just 4 hours of sleep you wake up in a psychosis and cant stop crying as if your own mother just killed herself in front of you..yet you have no reason to cry at all its just the level of fucked your head is now. i just wake up every morning and enjoy the feeling of the sun because it could be any minute my brain says TIME TO BLOW UP and i either end up dead or in the cuckoos nest, thats not a nice thing to realize your future is