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Greenlighter
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- Sep 19, 2022
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I stumbled upon Bluelight a long time ago - and I just thought it was so freaking cool.
The truth is, I only took a peek/signed up more recently. I chose a really stupid username, and I don't think the Admins were happy about it?
Anyway, I just signed up again, with this very nerdy name - which may be geeky, but wtf - at least it's not too revealing or inappropriate.
So, I'm a 53 year old, disabled male with chronic pain: 8 damaged spinal discs (inoperable) and fibromyalgia. Also recently diagnosed with major depressive disorder.
Suffering for over 16 years now. For the past 5-8? years it's been 30mg MS Contin ER (morphine sulfate): 1 in the morning, 1 at night.
And Oxycodone 10mg every 6 hours - the past few years, I've had to cut & "add" my own store bought Tylenol... Idk / don't remember why the NP started Rxing it that way? But I guess it has it's advantages.
Hefty (close to 200mg) dose of effexor keeps me from thinking about rope...and .5 klonopin helps me sleep at night.
I guess in future posts, I can talk about how when I was in my late teens and twenties, I messed around with everything except H and mdma?
But, if I may share my main dilemma (past few months): it's a lack of stimulating substances? Coffee, espresso and RedBull's just aren't cutting it anymore. And since I would really, really, like to get out of bed and accomplish things... I've started researching legal stimulants, etc. My only previous experience, has been with those other ones.
Well, I sincerely hope I haven't broken any rules with this post? I tried.
A big hello to all the awesome members here at Bluelight!!
The truth is, I only took a peek/signed up more recently. I chose a really stupid username, and I don't think the Admins were happy about it?
Anyway, I just signed up again, with this very nerdy name - which may be geeky, but wtf - at least it's not too revealing or inappropriate.
So, I'm a 53 year old, disabled male with chronic pain: 8 damaged spinal discs (inoperable) and fibromyalgia. Also recently diagnosed with major depressive disorder.
Suffering for over 16 years now. For the past 5-8? years it's been 30mg MS Contin ER (morphine sulfate): 1 in the morning, 1 at night.
And Oxycodone 10mg every 6 hours - the past few years, I've had to cut & "add" my own store bought Tylenol... Idk / don't remember why the NP started Rxing it that way? But I guess it has it's advantages.
Hefty (close to 200mg) dose of effexor keeps me from thinking about rope...and .5 klonopin helps me sleep at night.
I guess in future posts, I can talk about how when I was in my late teens and twenties, I messed around with everything except H and mdma?
But, if I may share my main dilemma (past few months): it's a lack of stimulating substances? Coffee, espresso and RedBull's just aren't cutting it anymore. And since I would really, really, like to get out of bed and accomplish things... I've started researching legal stimulants, etc. My only previous experience, has been with those other ones.
Well, I sincerely hope I haven't broken any rules with this post? I tried.
A big hello to all the awesome members here at Bluelight!!
