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Mrs.Grey

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I guess you could say I am new, I have been reading threads from this site for a long time now. I found the info very valuable, not sure why I waited so long to join. Well, as to my story, I am sure its a lot like many of ya'lls stories. Ya'll, haha, yes I am from the south, Louisiana to be exact. Just turned 35 and my life is more "normal" than its ever been. I started my journey of escape young maybe 15. I was trying to escape my surroundings and myself. At around that age my brain developed a new way of handling stress through panic attacks. As a kid u just want to be like everyone else, having full blown panic in public really doesn't "fit in." I also had physical pain from an early age. So my family found a good doctor to treat me. Good doctor became my best friend, the day he started writing pain pills. Ah, this was my stuff. I took to this like water! I felt good and the panic seemed to disappear. Well after years of seeing the good doctor I found myself laying on the floor thinking I was dying from withdrawal. At this time I was told go to treatment or your on the streets. So being the addict that I was I found the easiest treatment I could find. Outpatient methadone. Ah, I just thought pain pills were my stuff till I walked into that clinic. Best high I ever had. I was good, followed the rules, never had a dirty drug screen. Why would I go get high anywhere else, the best dope was right there. After years at that clinic and miscarrying my first child. I found myself broke with no car to get there. I didn't know what hell was till that day. Anyone who has gone through methadone withdrawal will know, no other withdrawal comes close. I spent 4 months in that hell! I had to find a way out and I did. I have a doctor now and am weening of of Suboxone he is also treating my underlying issues. I have a good life, and had a wonderful baby girl. This time is different because this time I really do want to be sober. Thanks for your time if you read this whole LONG story : )
 
I'm glad you decided to make an account. Find your way over to the recovery forums and dive right in--there are lots of folks there with similar experience and lots of mutual support to be found. Congratulations on your decision and also congratulations on the birth of your baby girl!<3
 
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