Hey!

[mental_adventurer]

Hey I'm 21 from Texas! I visit this site a lot so I thought I might as well make an account. I'm probably as unexperienced as they come to drugs so this site has helped more than I can explain.
This might be too forward in an intro, but I have crippling anxiety (that can be on the edge of near delusional paranoia). So I try to find new and interesting ways to combat it. My medicine used to be cannabis until it only increased my paranoid anxiety. I had to quit and just discovered benzos. Benzos scare me, due to how dangerous they can be, so my main goal is to avoid addiction and reliance and just use the stuff when necessary. This allows me to temporary experience an anxiety free world to help understand how to relax when not under any medication. So far it's working and I've made a lot of improvements. (and I've only used them 4 different occasions!)
Also, although I've never tried psychedelics (except salvia) I'm very interested in their potential spiritual and personal insight.
Besides drugs I consider myself a creative person who enjoys playing guitar, writing, and sketching. I'm also into spiritualism, buddhism, meditation, philosophy, psychology and lucid dreaming.

Thanks for reading!

 

[Cuhpcakes]

Welcome Mental!

Our mental symptoms are just that, mental. They manifest on how you proccess them.

Just remain happy, because you are too awesome for such negative aspects! :D

Buddhism!!! The only religion I would follow, there's just no way to bedemon this sacred life.

They believe every essence is equal, nothing is more important than another. A millionare sport's champion is on the same plateau as a butterfly whose 14 day life consisted mostly of... reproducing.

Also, the arguably most lethal fighting-style arised from buddhism. Shaolin Kung Fu, moves so deadly UFC won't allow them.

They practiced this as a form of self descipline, physical exercise. It is in no means to utilize this to truly harm another.

I've always been fascinated by vivid dreams, yet I can only achieve them during sleep paralysis or drug euphoria. How do you get them sober?

 

[mental_adventurer]

Hey thanks! :D
Yes! Buddhism is so fascinating! Life is a material illusion.
And I can only obtain lucid dreaming after practicing a few techniques for about 2 weeks if I'm lucky. But I normally get a lucid dream once a month if I constantly practice. I keep a dream journal that I write in each morning detailing as much as I can remember about the dream. I keep track of specific themes that occur only in dreams and consciously remind myself of them throughout my waking life. I also test to see if I'm dreaming throughout the day and try to remind myself to do so as often as possible. The four top reality checks I use is double checking the time, in a dream number sequences change each time you look so if the time goes from 7:23 to 18:42 you're dreaming. The second is me trying to do something impossible like putting my hand through my other hand or trying to levitate. The third is a no fail method for me so far, hold your nose and breath. If you can keep breathing, you're dreaming! It's the most exciting in my opinion. lol. The fourth is kind of risky, I simply ask myself how I got where I am and if it is logical for being where I am doing what I'm doing. But normally in a dream I'll come up with some crazy illogical reason that somehow makes sense.
And I absolutely love how vivid and adventurous my drug induced dreams are. They're like 500x more realistic than usual. I'm also trying to understand dream signs. I'm skeptical about it but I'm also really interested in the possible meanings.

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Welcome to BL. Sounds like you're going to enjoy a lot of our forums here.

Feel free to post a thread in one of the drug forums with any questions you have. We also have many threads about anxiety, medications, etc, you can search for.