sleepiest
Greenlighter
Been reading for years, so I thought I should finally join. Which I did a couple months ago. But now I'm finally saying hi.
Bluelight is a fantastic resource, and it's been a major source of safety, dosage, harm reduction and firsthand experiential knowledge to me as I explored everything in this lifestyle that interested me.
I'm also in a new place. Getting older, got in a bit of trouble when a passtime became an addiction (sweet, sweet opioids). So, legal issues followed. Now I'm in MMT, pretty clean but may have to get cleaner yet if probation is where I end up legally, which is likely.
So, I wouldn't have made such drastic changes on my own, but I'm using it to try and reassess. Figure out if I can keep some fun parts of the life and lose the tough stuff (once I'm free and clear of Johnny Law).
So, hello. Methadone sucks, huh? But what a vicious, miserable godsend it is. I'm actually on a couple Adderall rn (prescribed... for now) which might be why I'm finally writing this. I didn't sleep last night so I popped them to get to the Methadone clinic (every...single...day, 45 minutes each way. Tough living outside of real cities.
I also like long walks in the woods (really!), Venture Brothers, going out for drinks (so many of you all are strictly druggies...) beats being sloppy, but if you can drink and have friends who can handle themselves, it's not euphoric but it beats... well, it beats never going out. Stoners...
And I was in grad/postgrad (depends where you live what they call it, right?) getting an MFA in fiction writing before opioids, depression, and a really rough end to a mostly amazing relationship put me in the slow lane to get my head together.
Sorry if this intro was TL;DR. Just nice to join you all,
sleepiest
Bluelight is a fantastic resource, and it's been a major source of safety, dosage, harm reduction and firsthand experiential knowledge to me as I explored everything in this lifestyle that interested me.
I'm also in a new place. Getting older, got in a bit of trouble when a passtime became an addiction (sweet, sweet opioids). So, legal issues followed. Now I'm in MMT, pretty clean but may have to get cleaner yet if probation is where I end up legally, which is likely.
So, I wouldn't have made such drastic changes on my own, but I'm using it to try and reassess. Figure out if I can keep some fun parts of the life and lose the tough stuff (once I'm free and clear of Johnny Law).
So, hello. Methadone sucks, huh? But what a vicious, miserable godsend it is. I'm actually on a couple Adderall rn (prescribed... for now) which might be why I'm finally writing this. I didn't sleep last night so I popped them to get to the Methadone clinic (every...single...day, 45 minutes each way. Tough living outside of real cities.
I also like long walks in the woods (really!), Venture Brothers, going out for drinks (so many of you all are strictly druggies...) beats being sloppy, but if you can drink and have friends who can handle themselves, it's not euphoric but it beats... well, it beats never going out. Stoners...
And I was in grad/postgrad (depends where you live what they call it, right?) getting an MFA in fiction writing before opioids, depression, and a really rough end to a mostly amazing relationship put me in the slow lane to get my head together.
Sorry if this intro was TL;DR. Just nice to join you all,
sleepiest
