whitegreen
Bluelighter
Hey there!
I will quote from my first post on the forums, it's in the thread about 3F-Phenmetrazine (a.k.a. 3-FPM) and hopefully that will clear things up which kind of person I am :D
The three dots (...) are stuff not really related to this post so I removed it, but for those interested you can find the full post here: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/737012-3F-Phenmetrazine?p=13050638#post13050638
And also I made a long report of "My month of on and off use of 3F-Phenmetrazine" if anyone cares to read, someone with +24k posts (which in my book seem to be a person of respect) told me I should post it on Erowid or something, I took that as such a compliment.
WHAT!
Oh my god... Everything I wrote except from the part above "WHAT!" disappeared when I pressed Preview Post. Please no....
It took my 45 minutes and it really made me show what kind of person I am and that I think that I will make a good addition to the Bluelight community.
DAAAAAMN
Well, let's see if I find it in me to re-write EVERYTHING once again but at a later time.
What about the drafts that are automatically being saved every now and then? Can I find one of those drafts somewhere? Because what I wrote was in my opinion incredible.
Damn it! It was probably too long, probably more than 1000 words. But I did make a TL;DR for those lazy people
I understand if you don't want to read 1000 words about someone you might not know (yet). So here comes the TL;DR at least.
TL;DR
I'm a guy, 24-27 years old, open-minded, I try to not judge people by only looking at them. Not even after the first impression, I decide whether I am going to like a person after a few times.
Only history of addiction/drug abuse is cannabis (from age 19-22 or 23, quit cold turkey, no problem, no cravings whatsoever) and then benzos which I was introduced to last summer (not blaming the guy introducing me to it, it was my own personal choice). I tapered down in February and was clean for a month then I got a 0.25mg Flubromazolam which rebooted the whole benzo thing again but I'm tapering down at the moment and it's going well.
I like drugs but I don't love them, the things in my life that I appreciate and love the most are my family and friends, nature and music. I have been producing psytrance, downbeat/psybient, all with influences from all around the world especially Asia (south east Asia), India, Japan, China, Mongolia etc.
Except for my love for nature, music and getting to know people, especially people from completely different cultures than me.
F***!! I still can't let go of all the text that got lost. It told so much about me. But I feel the itch of writing coming on again, I have taken some 3-FPM so that's it, and I like to write in general as well, I have some ideas for books or screenplays, I even have the start of two novels/books going on, about 20 pages each so far.
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Anyhow, I guess I'll just write the most important stuff that got lost. Need to go to a friend soon probably. Not sure what I have mentioned so far since most of it disappeared but I am and open-minded guy and even though since I first started smoking cannabis 12-14 years ago decided to NEVER do anything intravenously I have no judgement or prejudice to those who do. It's their choice, I will NOT, I repeat I will NOT try to interfere in THEIR choice. If someone wants to use a drug intravenously it's up to them, but personally I made up my mind more than 10 years ago to never to anything intravenously, unless I'm at a hospital and get free morphine :D
And now I can't even remember most of the stuff I wrote :/ I think the TL;DR covers it mostly. It's gonna feel good going off benzos again just in time for the real summer to kick in when I'm going out trekking for some days with a friend on sandy beaches, stony beaches, ancient forests, country roads and what not and just throwing up our tent whenever feel like a good spot. There's nothing as good as have been wandering aimlessly (kind of) for almost a full day and then put up your tent and start a fire and make something to eat. Sitting for an hour watching the sun goes down and just talking about life and everything (me and my friend can have pretty deep talks, such talks that "regular" people would think us being of the crazy kind) then creeping into the tent and falling asleep in just five minutes. That's hard to beat, and most importantly, with no drugs involved. Like I said, I like drugs but I don't love them. It's when loving a drug it can become dangerous. Of course I "love" doing stuff every know and then but I will never fall in love with a drug (hopefully...). If you get my points.
Whenever I am going to post on Bluelight it will be either reports on experiences on different kind of compounds, mostly RC's I guess but it's not precluded that I report on one of the "real" drugs. I will also ask questions.
But to not be a complete asshole I made a rather long report of "My month of on and off use of 3F-Phenmetrazine" as to "prove" myself not just being someone to ask for advice or ask questions probably already answered a couple of times. Worth to mention is that before I ask a question, I use the search function to see if it has already been answered, I don't want to take up unnecessary space on the host server if someone already has been answered.
Very well, too bad 80% of my first draft got lost somewhere but this has to do for now. Might be that I add something later on. Or feel free to ask questions.
I will quote from my first post on the forums, it's in the thread about 3F-Phenmetrazine (a.k.a. 3-FPM) and hopefully that will clear things up which kind of person I am :D
The three dots (...) are stuff not really related to this post so I removed it, but for those interested you can find the full post here: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/737012-3F-Phenmetrazine?p=13050638#post13050638
And also I made a long report of "My month of on and off use of 3F-Phenmetrazine" if anyone cares to read, someone with +24k posts (which in my book seem to be a person of respect) told me I should post it on Erowid or something, I took that as such a compliment.
WHAT!
Oh my god... Everything I wrote except from the part above "WHAT!" disappeared when I pressed Preview Post. Please no....
It took my 45 minutes and it really made me show what kind of person I am and that I think that I will make a good addition to the Bluelight community.DAAAAAMN
Well, let's see if I find it in me to re-write EVERYTHING once again but at a later time.
What about the drafts that are automatically being saved every now and then? Can I find one of those drafts somewhere? Because what I wrote was in my opinion incredible.
Damn it! It was probably too long, probably more than 1000 words. But I did make a TL;DR for those lazy people
I understand if you don't want to read 1000 words about someone you might not know (yet). So here comes the TL;DR at least.TL;DR
I'm a guy, 24-27 years old, open-minded, I try to not judge people by only looking at them. Not even after the first impression, I decide whether I am going to like a person after a few times.
Only history of addiction/drug abuse is cannabis (from age 19-22 or 23, quit cold turkey, no problem, no cravings whatsoever) and then benzos which I was introduced to last summer (not blaming the guy introducing me to it, it was my own personal choice). I tapered down in February and was clean for a month then I got a 0.25mg Flubromazolam which rebooted the whole benzo thing again but I'm tapering down at the moment and it's going well.
I like drugs but I don't love them, the things in my life that I appreciate and love the most are my family and friends, nature and music. I have been producing psytrance, downbeat/psybient, all with influences from all around the world especially Asia (south east Asia), India, Japan, China, Mongolia etc.
Except for my love for nature, music and getting to know people, especially people from completely different cultures than me.
F***!! I still can't let go of all the text that got lost. It told so much about me. But I feel the itch of writing coming on again, I have taken some 3-FPM so that's it, and I like to write in general as well, I have some ideas for books or screenplays, I even have the start of two novels/books going on, about 20 pages each so far.
------
Anyhow, I guess I'll just write the most important stuff that got lost. Need to go to a friend soon probably. Not sure what I have mentioned so far since most of it disappeared but I am and open-minded guy and even though since I first started smoking cannabis 12-14 years ago decided to NEVER do anything intravenously I have no judgement or prejudice to those who do. It's their choice, I will NOT, I repeat I will NOT try to interfere in THEIR choice. If someone wants to use a drug intravenously it's up to them, but personally I made up my mind more than 10 years ago to never to anything intravenously, unless I'm at a hospital and get free morphine :D
And now I can't even remember most of the stuff I wrote :/ I think the TL;DR covers it mostly. It's gonna feel good going off benzos again just in time for the real summer to kick in when I'm going out trekking for some days with a friend on sandy beaches, stony beaches, ancient forests, country roads and what not and just throwing up our tent whenever feel like a good spot. There's nothing as good as have been wandering aimlessly (kind of) for almost a full day and then put up your tent and start a fire and make something to eat. Sitting for an hour watching the sun goes down and just talking about life and everything (me and my friend can have pretty deep talks, such talks that "regular" people would think us being of the crazy kind) then creeping into the tent and falling asleep in just five minutes. That's hard to beat, and most importantly, with no drugs involved. Like I said, I like drugs but I don't love them. It's when loving a drug it can become dangerous. Of course I "love" doing stuff every know and then but I will never fall in love with a drug (hopefully...). If you get my points.
Whenever I am going to post on Bluelight it will be either reports on experiences on different kind of compounds, mostly RC's I guess but it's not precluded that I report on one of the "real" drugs. I will also ask questions.
But to not be a complete asshole I made a rather long report of "My month of on and off use of 3F-Phenmetrazine" as to "prove" myself not just being someone to ask for advice or ask questions probably already answered a couple of times. Worth to mention is that before I ask a question, I use the search function to see if it has already been answered, I don't want to take up unnecessary space on the host server if someone already has been answered.
Very well, too bad 80% of my first draft got lost somewhere but this has to do for now. Might be that I add something later on. Or feel free to ask questions.
