Heroin Heroin..too much?

[HeadphonesandLSD]

That's like planning to put on your seatbelt, after you get in a car accident but before you crash. If you OD it's probably not going to work out that way. Ever get anaesthesia in the hospital, remember that feeling of waking up and not even realizing you went under? An OD can happen so fast you won't even know it that's why they find people dead with needles still in their arm. You are lucky for sure, try and watch your own back a little better from now on if you want to live.

Oh, I plan to. I also need to mention that I didn't take a shot of H. I took an unknown amount of xanax and Opana over the course of the day. My friend came over, I was used to roxis and he just kept passing over that plate with lines cut out for us so.....free drugs w00t...point begin we lost track of how much we did mainly because we both ate 4mg of xanax before we even broke into the Opana.

He was pissed too, because he did his "weeks stash" (would have lasted him maybe 2 days I think ) in that afternoon with me and only had like one Opana 30 (iirc) left, claimed he showed up with about 8 I think.

Anyway long story short; nodded out twice, woke up coughing up all the shit that was draining into my lungs because I wasn't breathing properly. First time it happened I knew I was on the verge, tried not to nod back out and did anyway. Lucky I woke up. I know that's probably nothing compared to doing too much at once with H IV, but it sure as hell scared the shit out of me. I've slowed down a lot since it happened end of last year.

So when I said "you'll never do another shot" I didn't mean to come off as if I had used via IV before, because thankfully, I haven't. But honestly....the thought crosses my mind a lot these days. I'm just trying to avoid the scene as much as I can. Moving away from "home" soon just to get away from all the friends/connections/bullshit.

Going to make an attempt to get my shit together. But I'd by lying if I said I wasn't taking things to get by...little xanax here, little oxycodone there (never more than 20mg, and never more than three times a week at the moment). I did quit the oxy for about a month but the pain was just too much, had to go back to it. I can deal with withdrawal and PAWS but not begin able to walk because of my knees ain't something I can tolerate atm. I'm going to see a doctor ASAP and have that taken care of soon, and if he does give me anything I'd abuse I'm going to give that bottle to a family member and have them over see my in take. Just can't be trusted with the stuff.

Anyway, stay safe all. It always breaks my heart when someone on here ODs. I can't stress enough that if you even have a hint that you might be in trouble you need to call for help. If not 911, at least a family member/friend to watch over you and make the call when needed. If you're into opiates you might also want to look into keeping some Naloxone around, but I'm not up and up on the stuff so I don't know if it would have helped in my case (benzo + opana) but I know it saves a lot of lives every year. I know we all love the nod, but it isn't worth you life.