Heroin and working detox

[Shocker3171]

Oh my gawd!!!! I'm starting subutex tomorrow after relapsing 2 weeks ago!!!! I'm ready for this now. I'm living a lie, I've uploaded a log on YouTube so I can give daily accounts but also to look back and see what a mess I am. I'm 44 drugs and jail have kept me very young in the mind. It's time to quit full stop now. Heroin to subutex to nothing over the next month! I'm sick of being sick fed up with being fed up! I have a beautiful girlfriend who knows nothing of this! So I want this done and dusted!! I am ready willing and able! I have deleted every number off my phone of dealers, absolutely no way of getting any junk. I have a script of subutex , Imodium and Zantac, but most of all I have my anger, my anger of getting into this mess! So with my last hit 6 hours ago I shall now goto bed, wake up and put 2 mills if subutex under my tongue! Then again every 4 hours then when I feel right I shall taper down my amount every 4 hours! I could literally jump off a bridge with the stupidity of what I've done! But I need to get through this and get it done! 4 days is nothing!!!! NOTHING! Then I can concentrate on the reduction of subutex! Any suggestions??