timetohunt
Bluelighter
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- Oct 23, 2007
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17 days from my last oxy pills. And before that I went about ten days scattering about 10 mg of bupe around.
The habit goes back 8 or 9 years, the last year binging on oxy and sustaining on 20-40 mg of methadone when there's no oxy. Also there were a few seasons of super high oxymorphone use. So I realize this won't be a picnic.
Most of the bowel and intense symptoms are almost gone. My biggest problem I think may have to do with a cortisol issue. I wake up from the typically interrupted sleep (3-6 hours), and I'm reasonably calm and not sweating. As soon as I start dealing with being awake my anxiety ramps up and I become a disgusting sweaty goopy creature. Makes every move feel disgusting. My body temp rises and falls. By noon I'm exhausted from the ordeal. Nothing is getting done. And that in turn ups the anxiety.
I believe this to be a cortisol issue as I'm going into flight-fight mode. Is there any medicine I can get to calm this down?
Benzos can help me with sleep but not this issue. I have some access to benzos but I've never valued them much. Looking for something that may operate on the hormones?
In case you may wonder, not planning on going back. I won't buy heroin (it sucks here compared to pharm) and the PM patient hassle is getting harder and harder. Feds are going nuts here as I live in the epicenter of the pain killer scourge.
The habit goes back 8 or 9 years, the last year binging on oxy and sustaining on 20-40 mg of methadone when there's no oxy. Also there were a few seasons of super high oxymorphone use. So I realize this won't be a picnic.
Most of the bowel and intense symptoms are almost gone. My biggest problem I think may have to do with a cortisol issue. I wake up from the typically interrupted sleep (3-6 hours), and I'm reasonably calm and not sweating. As soon as I start dealing with being awake my anxiety ramps up and I become a disgusting sweaty goopy creature. Makes every move feel disgusting. My body temp rises and falls. By noon I'm exhausted from the ordeal. Nothing is getting done. And that in turn ups the anxiety.
I believe this to be a cortisol issue as I'm going into flight-fight mode. Is there any medicine I can get to calm this down?
Benzos can help me with sleep but not this issue. I have some access to benzos but I've never valued them much. Looking for something that may operate on the hormones?
In case you may wonder, not planning on going back. I won't buy heroin (it sucks here compared to pharm) and the PM patient hassle is getting harder and harder. Feds are going nuts here as I live in the epicenter of the pain killer scourge.
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