lilylove12749
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Hi, so I took around 1/3 of a gram of MDMA two and a half weeks ago along with 2 other friends. This was the first time I'd ever done this kind of thing and before taking it I was wary and perhaps this is why I got the anxiety.
I'm 20 years old, a female and around 110 lbs.
My friends are both fine and I thought I was fine until the next day when I had a persistent tachycardia of 128 bpm (resting) for two days. I went to the doctor and they ran an ECG test and told me that it was just a mixture of anxiety and the comedown and that it would go away on it's own. This meant that there was nothing wrong with my heart.
Once the heart rate had relaxed to around 90 bpm (resting but still feeling really high to me) I developed a bad tonsillitis infection (probably because my immune system was down). So for this I was prescribed a strong antibiotic. I took the antibiotic as instructed however got these spells of "butterflies" in my stomach types of sensations whenever i was alone or thinking about my heart. I also began to feel like I could hear my heart all the time therefore obsessing that it was too fast.
So for the first week my heart would range between 72-90 bpm (resting) depending on how anxious I was however it started to get better and I began to feel less anxious. Then my mother called me up and suggested that I might have some sort of life threatening heart disease and I was catapulted back into the spiral.
Now I'm off the antibiotic but I have moments when I feel completely fine (weirdly I work in a very crowded club and feel most comfortable when I'm working even though this would be a typical anxiety trigger for most sufferers) but then I also have moments when the butterflies come back at the most random times (sitting alone in the train thinking).
The doctor said that the anxiety should subside in a few weeks, and I do NOT get any panic attacks LUCKILY (it's just this anxiety-like feeling and fast heart rate) but I just need a little reassurance that I will go back to normal.
I'm so scared that I'll have to deal with anxiety for the rest of my life and would really appreciate it if people could share their experiences in helping me break my anxiety loop so I feel okay again!!
Thanks so much.
I'm 20 years old, a female and around 110 lbs.
My friends are both fine and I thought I was fine until the next day when I had a persistent tachycardia of 128 bpm (resting) for two days. I went to the doctor and they ran an ECG test and told me that it was just a mixture of anxiety and the comedown and that it would go away on it's own. This meant that there was nothing wrong with my heart.
Once the heart rate had relaxed to around 90 bpm (resting but still feeling really high to me) I developed a bad tonsillitis infection (probably because my immune system was down). So for this I was prescribed a strong antibiotic. I took the antibiotic as instructed however got these spells of "butterflies" in my stomach types of sensations whenever i was alone or thinking about my heart. I also began to feel like I could hear my heart all the time therefore obsessing that it was too fast.
So for the first week my heart would range between 72-90 bpm (resting) depending on how anxious I was however it started to get better and I began to feel less anxious. Then my mother called me up and suggested that I might have some sort of life threatening heart disease and I was catapulted back into the spiral.
Now I'm off the antibiotic but I have moments when I feel completely fine (weirdly I work in a very crowded club and feel most comfortable when I'm working even though this would be a typical anxiety trigger for most sufferers) but then I also have moments when the butterflies come back at the most random times (sitting alone in the train thinking).
The doctor said that the anxiety should subside in a few weeks, and I do NOT get any panic attacks LUCKILY (it's just this anxiety-like feeling and fast heart rate) but I just need a little reassurance that I will go back to normal.
I'm so scared that I'll have to deal with anxiety for the rest of my life and would really appreciate it if people could share their experiences in helping me break my anxiety loop so I feel okay again!!
Thanks so much.