Opioids Help, please, a trip up & I'm scared..should I be? Guilty feeling as well.

[The Doc.]

I remember how shocked I was when i went to the ER in withdrawal with my mom and the doctors were so nice they gave me two oxy 10s right away and then a script for oxycodone 5mgs to get me by. Then even set me up with a counsler and the detox facility. People can be nice there are decent people out there still. Also a lot of assholes but they will get what's coming.

 

[Cliffy78]

Well... Wow. No fucking joke- I was ready for a failed trip to urgent care. I drove down the block . Before I got out of the car, I closed my eyes and said a great prayer(as in the past I've sought help w/Dr's, at an ER, and was discharged with direction to go into a rehab or sober living).
Literally, I sent out my last prayer of ever going to a medical...anything, in attempt NOT to get a narcotic, but simply seeking relief for symptoms I'm going through in a forever final withdrawal. I saw the nurse ,she was kind. I explained that my story could be long but in short I was in opiate withdrawal(and a migraine..suck ass) I waited for doctor, sent out prayer to..for once, just be treated as a human going through something that's shite. When the Dr. Came in, I just let it be the simple truth, as it's all I've got. I shed about 5-10 tears. She, the doctor grabbed my hand and said there's no shame, You're worthy of help and that she knew my strength when I first spoke. She said she knew how I felt because (get this) "You're looking at an addict 27yrs. clean!" What are the fucking chances!?! ( didn't ask what substance for her). She said a many kind humbling words, asked me if she could hug me. Again, I was shocked&humbled. Gave me encouragement and good medical advise. In the end, she wrote me 4weeks(1 patch a week) of Clonidine! And I got my usual shot in de bum of Toradol(anti-inflammitory for migraine). That was it. She said if I'm ever confused or need help I knew where to find her&she's said that me coming in today made her day something amazing as well.
I could NOT have even conjured up a more surreal experience!
Thank you Crimsonjunk for saying to go to an urgent care- thank you Cliffy78 for the support&saying "truth".
I'm still shocked.
That was...not what I'm used to & wildly meant to be. At least it feels that way.

That's awesome emme so great to hear! I started to tear up reading your post. It's so great that they took care of you, properly. I hope things get a bit easier for you now. Such great news!! I'm very happy for you
There's a few good people left in the world I guess...

 

[The Doc.]

The truth will set you free

 

[Ksa]

Ok, here's your problem: You do activities that solicitate the nervous system when your nervous system is deactivated, in your case it's by opioids, for others it's lack of sleep, whatever. That's what's giving you the migraine. You cannot for example take hydrocodone and then go rave. You'll have the worst migraine ever. The only activities compatible with a deactivated nervous system is sleep and rest. Other activities like going out, raving, watching movies, sex etc. are done when the nervous system is...activated! By rest, by stimulants etc.

 

[Emme80]

^That would make sense . As for my case, migraines have been a part if my life since I was a child. Part due to a malformation inside my skull but I also know when I stress, I tense, that malformation is affected, thus I again, migraine. Usual protocol is an Imitrex and a shot of Toradol.
Suppose it's a good thing I've never been to a rave...was never my thing. Although, when I was 17, 18...19? I did do my fare share of acid-from wandering around arizona deserts to the streets of London. I did do exctasy...usually walked the streets or listened to music in an old mansion-like basement, writing in attempt to catch lightening. Rave, nah. I'd rather be "lost" in a desert where I understand things.
The withdrawals were a def. catalyst to yesterday.
Trainspotter- thanks. It IS shocking when a doctor treats you... TREATS you. And like a human no less. In my life I've never had someone , since my years if abusing, through the MMT, treat me with such dignity. And it WAS the truth that let it be what it was. No holds back, here I am, got nothing to lose. I want no opiates. She was like some angel...100% unexpected. I expected to have to justify that I'm a worthy person. TRULY on a path of correcting what I've missed out on. And...it taught me that yes, there are angels out there. What were the chances- a new clinic that's caught my eye(as I often enough have to get Toradol shots) but something more... and who knows, I could've walked in the in hopes of help another day and NEVER had met this Dr. All this just wanting Clonidine.
I came home, wrote a card out to her, finding all the perfect string of pearls to sum up my humbled gratitude. Dropped it off when I drove back up to pick up my script(by the way when I turned in script, it was 4wks. Of clonidine patch... Apparently they were unsure of strength. So, they called her, when I picked up script, they said that she changed it& did add another month of refill(so I've another month of 1 week patches in waiting). I got a call this morning... This doctor wanted to know how I was doing, choked up thanked me for the card and said if I ever questioned my path forward, I knew where to find her.
I cannot chalk it up to anything but crazy amazing and meant to be and..miraculous.
And Cliffy, I was reared up by the whole experience. It's Not what I'm used to. I was getting much more used to the idea that honesty is not the best policy(in this type situation).
Well, last night I slept without sweaty pillows, changing blankets, no goosebumps..etc. none of that shite! So success for this M-80!!!!
(thx. again)

 

[Cliffy78]

That's awesome, 2 mths of klonadine!!! So cool.
We get so used to being treated like shit that we think that's how it's supposed to be. I'm glad someone proved us wrong.

 

[Emme80]

Couldn't be more true.