So ill try make this short as possible.
sufferd with panic attacks and anxiety for 5 years. 5 years ago it got really bad , was agrophobic for 3 months darnt leave the house and sufferd with constant de-realization for 5 months. Doctor gave me ssri's but all just made me feel worse and some diazepam but never did dare take them.
That being said, after a hard 6 months I got myself a job and life become somewhat 'normal' for a person with bad anxiety. Going out , not feeling to bad, usuing alchol as a crutch is a lot of un-comfortable situations, but definatly not abusing it.
Anyway, 4 weeks ago I had a massive panic attack, left me in bed for 3 days, didn't ea or hardly sleep and felt I was dieing. My dad came and finally got me up. I was actually cared to walk for passing out. But basically for 3 weeks used alcohol as a crutch, 4 cans of beer and maybe half a bottle of wine a day.....don't know how bad that is? Anyway it all came out how much I was drinking so I went to the doctor scared of getting an alcohol problem and asked if there was anything that he could give me , that would make me as care free as alcohol but meant I was drinking. He said yes 'diazepam' but didn't really ant to prescribe it. but after a long talk he gave me 7 2mg tablets. well I took 4 of them 7 in the first day to try and calm my anxiety, it seemed to work abit. I rang him back the next day and said I think they are working but the dose doesn't seem to be really taking edge off. so we agreed 5mg 3X a day for a week and then down to 2mg 3X a day for a week and then to stop. on the first 2 days I took the 15mg I felt pretty good, nit high, but just not on edge, but I soon googled and got really scared about all the W/D horror storys I hear about, so have took myself back down to 8mg a day. I have been on this dose for about 5 days now and on diazepam for about 10 days in total. It seems to be the only thing that calms me down abit. SSRI side effects make me feel horrible. Im now back at work after 4 weeks off and still getting by on 8mg a day. and I haven't had a drink of alchol for 10 days!
Im wondering if I really should b as worried as I am after only 10 days use on these things? Im excercisng everyday aswell to try combat anxiety, and im 27 year old. My anxiety can get so bad I feel like im going to snap at any moment and can really scare me, and I cant stop thinking allllllll day!
My questions are:
1) should I be so worried at this point
2) ive never took benzos before so is the tolerance thing of building it within 2 weeks true? especially when not taking recreational amounts?
3) Is their a rough certain level/ time scale where benzo addiction is bad? like do you have to take it for over 6 months and like 40mg a day to really feel bad from coming off it?
4) I currently take 2mg 4X a day.........11am, 3pm, 6pm and 9pm. but in morning especially before work I can feel anxious would it be better to just try and take 2X2mg when wake up and 2X2mg at say 7pm? Or is it better the way im doing it as it spreads the dose?
I know im asking a lot but half the people out their go on about how good benzos are for anxiety and they've been on them for years and then other people say how they have took 4mg a day for 2 weeks and are hooked, lol??? I mean as far as im aware diazepam is one of the better benzos and Xanax is quite strong....but millions of people use Xanax on a daily basis.
please help, in last 4 days ive just been reading post after post on peoples different views and would like some answers to my situation ?
sufferd with panic attacks and anxiety for 5 years. 5 years ago it got really bad , was agrophobic for 3 months darnt leave the house and sufferd with constant de-realization for 5 months. Doctor gave me ssri's but all just made me feel worse and some diazepam but never did dare take them.
That being said, after a hard 6 months I got myself a job and life become somewhat 'normal' for a person with bad anxiety. Going out , not feeling to bad, usuing alchol as a crutch is a lot of un-comfortable situations, but definatly not abusing it.
Anyway, 4 weeks ago I had a massive panic attack, left me in bed for 3 days, didn't ea or hardly sleep and felt I was dieing. My dad came and finally got me up. I was actually cared to walk for passing out. But basically for 3 weeks used alcohol as a crutch, 4 cans of beer and maybe half a bottle of wine a day.....don't know how bad that is? Anyway it all came out how much I was drinking so I went to the doctor scared of getting an alcohol problem and asked if there was anything that he could give me , that would make me as care free as alcohol but meant I was drinking. He said yes 'diazepam' but didn't really ant to prescribe it. but after a long talk he gave me 7 2mg tablets. well I took 4 of them 7 in the first day to try and calm my anxiety, it seemed to work abit. I rang him back the next day and said I think they are working but the dose doesn't seem to be really taking edge off. so we agreed 5mg 3X a day for a week and then down to 2mg 3X a day for a week and then to stop. on the first 2 days I took the 15mg I felt pretty good, nit high, but just not on edge, but I soon googled and got really scared about all the W/D horror storys I hear about, so have took myself back down to 8mg a day. I have been on this dose for about 5 days now and on diazepam for about 10 days in total. It seems to be the only thing that calms me down abit. SSRI side effects make me feel horrible. Im now back at work after 4 weeks off and still getting by on 8mg a day. and I haven't had a drink of alchol for 10 days!
Im wondering if I really should b as worried as I am after only 10 days use on these things? Im excercisng everyday aswell to try combat anxiety, and im 27 year old. My anxiety can get so bad I feel like im going to snap at any moment and can really scare me, and I cant stop thinking allllllll day!
My questions are:
1) should I be so worried at this point
2) ive never took benzos before so is the tolerance thing of building it within 2 weeks true? especially when not taking recreational amounts?
3) Is their a rough certain level/ time scale where benzo addiction is bad? like do you have to take it for over 6 months and like 40mg a day to really feel bad from coming off it?
4) I currently take 2mg 4X a day.........11am, 3pm, 6pm and 9pm. but in morning especially before work I can feel anxious would it be better to just try and take 2X2mg when wake up and 2X2mg at say 7pm? Or is it better the way im doing it as it spreads the dose?
I know im asking a lot but half the people out their go on about how good benzos are for anxiety and they've been on them for years and then other people say how they have took 4mg a day for 2 weeks and are hooked, lol??? I mean as far as im aware diazepam is one of the better benzos and Xanax is quite strong....but millions of people use Xanax on a daily basis.
please help, in last 4 days ive just been reading post after post on peoples different views and would like some answers to my situation ?