Oxycodone Withdrawal I need help please
ok so heres my story, when I was 17 I was a passenger in a car that went 120 mph into a tree on the pass fortunately I was the only one seriously injured out of 3 people in the car. I was hospitalized for 2 months at first then another month when I had to go back in for surgery for a shattered right heal and foot had to get metal plates and screws in my toes and left ankle, had 4-5 broken ribs and a broken hand.
For pain they had my taking (6) 5mg oxycodone every 3 hours (220mg per day) and a 40 OP every 12 hours (80 OP everyday) which equals to about 300mg of oxy total. They had me on this for about 6-7 months then cut me back immensely. Worst WD for about a month. Made me never want to touch these types of pills ever again!
So.. I didn't until about a year later when my buddy said he could get his hands on 30mg oxycodone. Being farmiliar with them I decided to get a couple then I eventually was getting OP 60's or oxycodone 30's from him because he had an almost endless supply through his father. This lasted about a year I came off them and I haven't been able to stay away from them for more than 2-3 months at a time.
Now I'm 20 years old and for the past 6 months I have been pretty out of control with them. I would be picking up (30) 15mg oxycodone and they would be gone within a week.. or (10) 30mg and they were actually gone in like 2 or 3 days.. They never used to go so quick but more recently my dealer has showed me how to smoke them and how different the hi is.
Now for some reason I feel way more addicted and can only think about smoking them whenever I get my hands on them.. So finally I've had enough of these damn pills that have taken all my money from me. Today I was 120 hours clean (5 days).. I still had the back chills but was beginning to feel better. But for some reason last night I dreamed that I had them.. and was using and woke up in a panic attack.. I had so many stupid triggers go off for me today including my friend who is always nagging me to get him some pills from my guy.
And I slipped and smoked about 30mg.. and only have about 15mg left for tomorrow (or most likely tonight because I truly cannot contrail this addiction) I'm pretty sure I can stop I just want to feel better and thats what keeps me coming back to them. I just don't want to start WD again I feel like I was close to being done with them and I'm so stupid I used again!! ughh does anyone know I will get any WD's from doing this much or am I tripping and I shouldn't feel that back since its such a lower dose...?
I just want to go back to counting the days of my sobriety If any of you have experience with this please let me know.. I MUST kick this habit its just difficult they make me feel like life is worth living. and when im not on them i get really depressed i need out of this lifestyle before I get to deep. My friends dad who i used to get the OPs from OD about 2 weeks ago because he was a lifetime user.. and used to tell us about the good ole OC 80's.. anything helps thanks
ok so heres my story, when I was 17 I was a passenger in a car that went 120 mph into a tree on the pass fortunately I was the only one seriously injured out of 3 people in the car. I was hospitalized for 2 months at first then another month when I had to go back in for surgery for a shattered right heal and foot had to get metal plates and screws in my toes and left ankle, had 4-5 broken ribs and a broken hand.
For pain they had my taking (6) 5mg oxycodone every 3 hours (220mg per day) and a 40 OP every 12 hours (80 OP everyday) which equals to about 300mg of oxy total. They had me on this for about 6-7 months then cut me back immensely. Worst WD for about a month. Made me never want to touch these types of pills ever again!
So.. I didn't until about a year later when my buddy said he could get his hands on 30mg oxycodone. Being farmiliar with them I decided to get a couple then I eventually was getting OP 60's or oxycodone 30's from him because he had an almost endless supply through his father. This lasted about a year I came off them and I haven't been able to stay away from them for more than 2-3 months at a time.
Now I'm 20 years old and for the past 6 months I have been pretty out of control with them. I would be picking up (30) 15mg oxycodone and they would be gone within a week.. or (10) 30mg and they were actually gone in like 2 or 3 days.. They never used to go so quick but more recently my dealer has showed me how to smoke them and how different the hi is.
Now for some reason I feel way more addicted and can only think about smoking them whenever I get my hands on them.. So finally I've had enough of these damn pills that have taken all my money from me. Today I was 120 hours clean (5 days).. I still had the back chills but was beginning to feel better. But for some reason last night I dreamed that I had them.. and was using and woke up in a panic attack.. I had so many stupid triggers go off for me today including my friend who is always nagging me to get him some pills from my guy.
And I slipped and smoked about 30mg.. and only have about 15mg left for tomorrow (or most likely tonight because I truly cannot contrail this addiction) I'm pretty sure I can stop I just want to feel better and thats what keeps me coming back to them. I just don't want to start WD again I feel like I was close to being done with them and I'm so stupid I used again!! ughh does anyone know I will get any WD's from doing this much or am I tripping and I shouldn't feel that back since its such a lower dose...?
I just want to go back to counting the days of my sobriety If any of you have experience with this please let me know.. I MUST kick this habit its just difficult they make me feel like life is worth living. and when im not on them i get really depressed i need out of this lifestyle before I get to deep. My friends dad who i used to get the OPs from OD about 2 weeks ago because he was a lifetime user.. and used to tell us about the good ole OC 80's.. anything helps thanks
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.. sorry to hear you are struggling with this. Don't beat yourself up over it this shit is hard. 
