ThePharmacist4925
Bluelighter
I ultimately had to be faced with being cut-off or going to rehab, which all in all is a shitty ultimatum to be faced with. I chose the rehab option and eventually chose to move back home into an environment where there would be no tolerance for slip ups. Fortunately I was ready to be faced with that because if I had moved home earlier I would've fucked up even knowing that wasn't an option. Unfortunately if someone is still in the mindset having a real desire to use, not even a $65,000 a month rehab facility will be helpful. Not that I think those places a really helpful for most people, but that's another issue. I guess I've made myself accountable to my younger siblings and that's really driven my success this time around, in the past making myself accountable to residential-treatment programs and my parents didn't help because ultimately I could give a shit about what either has to say. Not that I don't care about my parents, but ultimately I wasn't the only one who dropped the ball. I had to destroy every last piece of the long term relationship I was in and even that wasn't enough to promote a turnaround, it had to be for my younger siblings otherwise I wouldn't be able to do this day in day out. Even then I really had to destroy everything before I was able to use being a good older brother as an excuse to stay clean and even then the selfish addict that I am is probably doing this for himself. Unfortunately, shits gotta completely hit the fan before some people get better and even then some people just won't make it. This all being said I just talked with my friend who I was in rehab with a year ago and we both are still fighting the good fight, and so are a few of the people that were with us, so some people do make it. Watch your back though, addicts tend to be divisive, so watch your back out there and make sure you are getting the support you need, because ultimately that's all you can do. You can want to help and try to help, but if the help is unwanted, it ain't gonna help. Best of luck
