Hey guys, been busy compiling a detox plan last night and this morning to knock my opiate addiction on the head, in the near future. Over the last few months I have been using progressively less and less opioids. I am generally using only for maybe 3-4 days out of every fortnight (14 days), typically the first 3 or 4 days after I get paid and then spending the next 10-11 days in a state of withdrawal. I have decided that it is pretty pointless to be using at all if I only get to have a shot a couple of days out of my pay cycle and spend the rest of the fortnight hanging out. It makes more sense to me, if I am spending that much time crook, then rather than start the withdrawal all over again after I have spent all of my money on heroin, oxycontin or morphine, I may as well tough it out at get a significant amount of clean time under my belt. Every pay day, as soon as I get paid, I use until I run out of money hence why I spend the majority of those 14 days between pays rotten sick. Recently I haven't even been using PST, bupe or codeine to make it easier, as I have no money left to even purchase those alternatives to heroin. So I have just been suffering.
As some of you may know, I recently broke up with my fiancee of 6 years and we both agreed to remain best friends. Despite us still hanging out as friends and still having a very close friendship, she has since run off with some deadbeat methamphetamine dealer and I haven't heard from her in about a month. She promised to let me know before she became involved with another guy and said that she expected me to do the same, clearly I didn't get that courtesy. Whilst I am absolutely heartbroken and in a position where I could easily start chopping into the drugs like a madman to escape the pain, I have decided to make something positive of the situation and try to get my life back together. I used to have a very successful career in the IT industry, which I have worked in for some 10 years, but I haven't worked for around 4 years, since my ex and I became addicted to heroin. I have only just realized the extent of the damage that heroin has caused - I have basically lost everything in my life that meant something to me: my career, my car (which I got $150 for when I sold it for scrap metal, so that we could score a few packets of gear), I have damaged relationships with my family, lost all of my "friends", and lost my best friend and partner particularly but not exclusively due to my drug use.
So, as I mentioned, I have drafted a detox plan and would like everyone's opinion. I refuse to go back onto maintenance, as I have been off daily dosing of buprenorphine for nearly a year now. Though, I occassionally use bupe to keep me well if I cannot score H, I find the withdrawals from codeine far less intense and tolerable, especially with benzos and cannabis on hand.
Here is what I have come up with:
Day 1:
Morning - 192mg codeine phosphate
Evening - 192mg codeine phosphate
TOTAL: 384mg codeine phosphate
Day 2:
Morning - 96mg codeine phosphate
Evening - 96mg codeine phosphate
TOTAL: 192mg codeine phosphate
Day 3:
Morning - 48mg codeine phosphate
Evening - 48mg codeine phosphate
TOTAL: 96mg codeine phosphate
Day 4:
Morning - 24mg codeine phosphate
Evening - 24mg codeine phosphate
TOTAL: 48mg codeine phosphate
Day 5:
Morning - 12mg codeine phosphate
Evening - 12mg codeine phosphate
TOTAL: 24mg codeine phosphate
Day 6:
Morning - 20mg diazepam
Evening - 20mg diazepam
TOTAL: 40mg diazepam
Day 7:
Morning - 15mg diazepam
Evening - 15mg diazepam
TOTAL: 30mg diazepam
Day 8:
Morning - 10mg diazepam
Evening - 10mg diazepam
TOTAL: 20mg diazepam
Day 9:
Morning - 5mg diazepam
Evening - 5mg diazepam
TOTAL: 10mg diazepam
Day 10:
Morning - 2.5mg diazepam
Evening - 2.5mg diazepam
TOTAL: 5mg diazepam
I am also acquiring some alprazolam to assist with the insomnia that most of us, if not all of us, experience when kicking a habit. It's enough to drive you mad. In conjunction with that I intend to pick up some loperamide HCl, as in the past I have found this effective at keeping the diarrhea under control, I have never used huge doses of it (i.e. 100mg), but in the past when I have been in detoxes, 4-8mg worked really well. I have taken clonidine in the past though it always made me really light headed and woozy due to low blood pressure and I found it rather unpleasant. I doubt I will need it with Xanax on hand to assist with sleep. I really would like to get a hold of some Kratom but being illegal in Australia (Schedule 9!) no vendors will ship it to the land down under.
I also intend to stock up on some cannabis, as I find that helps tremendously during withdrawal to negate the boredom and distract from how much slower the clock turns. If anyone can recommend any other useful withdrawal aids (I am aware of the most commonly used ones), that'd be great. Let me know what you all think.
Ash.
