Ok here it goes...again lol. I started my pill addiction in 2010 with a 3 month rx of 10mg percs 40 a week when i hurt myself. I had never felt wd before this but when i did i was frightened and so ensued a long love/hate relationship with pills. i used subs here and there before having to quit everything in feb 2012 when i found out i was pregnant with my 3rd child. I felt great sober. How i felt in that pregnancy sober was like a godsend. I had the csection and did NOT abuse. I quit a week after and was fine. I was fine until 2 months later when i had to have a hysterectomy. This is the worst pain to go through so i was heavy in the pills for a month. I didnt stop. I think i feared the wd and also i was hanging out with people who also were on them so it was easy. My husband did not know but like 2 months after i should have stopped, he was in constant pain due to fibro (which we didnt know was fibro at the time) and he was getting 30s. I think thats when everything got out of control bc then we were doing them together...no need to control the addiction bc i didnt have to hide. A year or so later HE decided we had to quit. He was strong and just went through it. I on the other hand started taking subs daily. I didnt stay at a certain mg. I had days where i took more and days i skipped. About 3 months ago i started to ween. Last friday i went to a destination wedding and we "partied" for 4 days straight. I was on 3mg when i took the last dose on thursday before leaving. I didnt want them while i was on coke and i actually thought omg this is easy. Lol well on day 5 i woke up feeling the worst wd i had ever felt in my life. I actually went to the er bc i thought my gallbladder was giving out due to the pain and sickness. They gave me morphine which i felt but not as much as i think i would have if not had been on subs for the last year or so. Wasnt sent home with anything bc my gallbladder was fine. That was monday. Ive been in hell ever since. So i came on here and read about the horror stories of long term wd from long term sub use. If i had known, i wouldnt have used them as a crutch but more as a short term tool. Anyway i heard about robert_325 and his reinduction to subs for a short term tool so that wd wouldnt be a month long affair and horrible. So i made sure i was in complete withdraw and hadnt taken any norco or any other narcotic for 48 hours. This morning i took 2mg sub. I intend on taking 1.75 for next three days as instructed and follow the instructions to a T. Id like some feed back. Maybe stories that can encourage me with this method and tips and just general help for after these couple of weeks go by bc i know there will be some wd but hopefully not for a month and hopefully mild. Thanks. Crying AS in typing this so please play nnice.
Ok here it goes...again lol. I started my pill addiction in 2010 with a 3 month rx of 10mg percs 40 a week when i hurt myself. I had never felt wd before this but when i did i was frightened and so ensued a long love/hate relationship with pills. i used subs here and there before having to quit everything in feb 2012 when i found out i was pregnant with my 3rd child. I felt great sober. How i felt in that pregnancy sober was like a godsend. I had the csection and did NOT abuse. I quit a week after and was fine. I was fine until 2 months later when i had to have a hysterectomy. This is the worst pain to go through so i was heavy in the pills for a month. I didnt stop. I think i feared the wd and also i was hanging out with people who also were on them so it was easy. My husband did not know but like 2 months after i should have stopped, he was in constant pain due to fibro (which we didnt know was fibro at the time) and he was getting 30s. I think thats when everything got out of control bc then we were doing them together...no need to control the addiction bc i didnt have to hide. A year or so later HE decided we had to quit. He was strong and just went through it. I on the other hand started taking subs daily. I didnt stay at a certain mg. I had days where i took more and days i skipped. About 3 months ago i started to ween. Last friday i went to a destination wedding and we "partied" for 4 days straight. I was on 3mg when i took the last dose on thursday before leaving. I didnt want them while i was on coke and i actually thought omg this is easy. Lol well on day 5 i woke up feeling the worst wd i had ever felt in my life. I actually went to the er bc i thought my gallbladder was giving out due to the pain and sickness. They gave me morphine which i felt but not as much as i think i would have if not had been on subs for the last year or so. Wasnt sent home with anything bc my gallbladder was fine. That was monday. Ive been in hell ever since. So i came on here and read about the horror stories of long term wd from long term sub use. If i had known, i wouldnt have used them as a crutch but more as a short term tool. Anyway i heard about robert_325 and his reinduction to subs for a short term tool so that wd wouldnt be a month long affair and horrible. So i made sure i was in complete withdraw and hadnt taken any norco or any other narcotic for 48 hours. This morning i took 2mg sub. I intend on taking 1.75 for next three days as instructed and follow the instructions to a T. Id like some feed back. Maybe stories that can encourage me with this method and tips and just general help for after these couple of weeks go by bc i know there will be some wd but hopefully not for a month and hopefully mild. Thanks. Crying AS in typing this so please play nnice.