Hello. I’m a heroin and crack addict in midlands Uk female 46.

[Alex73]

Reducing my meth script by 5 ml a fortnight from 80 ml December. All good so far. Between you and me I’m still using h just smoking it as I know I’ll be clear for the piss test if I leave it 4 days. If i have a 20 stone I’ll need to leave it at least 7 days. My key worker says I’ll go on Esprinor once down to 20 ml or so. Feeling good, my using is so minimal I don’t think I’m kidding myself. Don’t really drink. Extricating myself from a relationship based in mutual addiction. This is the hardest part of all. I can’t.. won’t...ach. I’m doing okay and he isn’t. I can’t fuck him off to rot and die. I still love the cunt. What to do eh?!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Welcome to Bluelight again Alex73

Working on yourself is priority number one, and i'm happy to hear that you have been doing better. You might feel at home in The Dark Side or Sober Living, where you can have the support of other members going through similar times.

I've been in a relationship where drug use was a mutual addiction as well. It's hard. Maybe you doing so well will motivate him to get cleaner as well. Heck, maybe you could even introduce him to Bluelight

Do you have hobbies or a career to help distract you from drug use?

Peace for now!

Best wishes,

madness00

 

[Nightraver]

Hey welcome to blue light I'm also UK based and currently working on quiting opiates my DOC is oxycontin and all and any benzo s I find this sight invaluable in helping me it's better than na in my opinion
Hit me up if you need a chat

 

[Alex73]

Welcome to Bluelight again Alex73

Working on yourself is priority number one, and i'm happy to hear that you have been doing better. You might feel at home in The Dark Side or Sober Living, where you can have the support of other members going through similar times.

I've been in a relationship where drug use was a mutual addiction as well. It's hard. Maybe you doing so well will motivate him to get cleaner as well. Heck, maybe you could even introduce him to Bluelight

Do you have hobbies or a career to help distract you from drug use?

Peace for now!

Best wishes,

madness00

thanks madness. I have managed to hold down work throughout this whole mess, which has undoubtedly helped take my mind off a lot of the psychological and physical symptoms. It’s outdoors work on a farm and tree jobs a couple of times a month. I don’t think I could have kept working if I was stuck indoors! My fella and I went to the methadone clinic together last year but he jacked in his script after a few months. He’s regretting it now and I took him back there 2 weeks ago. We don’t live together anymore but he’s nearby. A major difficulty is I have to drive him to score as we’re out in the sticks. Hence me still using. Hopefully once his script is sorted I’ll be able to say no. As it is, I can’t see him suffer and I can’t say no to a boot either!! I will have a read of the links you gave me and many many thanks again! ??

 

[Alex73]

Hey welcome to blue light I'm also UK based and currently working on quiting opiates my DOC is oxycontin and all and any benzo s I find this sight invaluable in helping me it's better than na in my opinion
Hit me up if you need a chat

Cheers Nighraver. Are you prescribed something to come off oxis? Or are you DIYing it? I’m so happy I’ve found this site! I can talk to people in the clinic but that’s once a fortnight and there’s obviously things I can’t tell them like still using between my piss tests! And as I’m out in the sticks I’m not in any scene in town so this is going to be so helpful. It looks like a wealth of info on here so I’m gonna start reading later after I’ve checked the lambs! Take care and thanks for your greetings ??

 

[Deleted member 517527]

H Alex,
Welcome to BL
I have found it a wonderful place for me to feel I belong. I have been going to meeting for a very long time and they are helpful as well, but sometimes stall in my small town. I have found that BL is very helpful that it is Current information on the world of Drugs and Alcohol.

 

[Zopiclone bandit]

What is Esprinor?

West Mids, UK based myself & quite partial to a few bags here & there.

 

[Nightraver]

Cheers Nighraver. Are you prescribed something to come off oxis? Or are you DIYing it? I’m so happy I’ve found this site! I can talk to people in the clinic but that’s once a fortnight and there’s obviously things I can’t tell them like still using between my piss tests! And as I’m out in the sticks I’m not in any scene in town so this is going to be so helpful. It looks like a wealth of info on here so I’m gonna start reading later after I’ve checked the lambs! Take care and thanks for your greetings ??

Using a combo of NA and a slow taper been on the ox daily for four years plus whatever else I could get and about sixteen years of oral opiate use for a combination of pain and abuse so the slow taper is working for me at the moment if I can get back to just weed IL be happy with that