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GCS15

GCS15

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Hello everybody.
Just a brief run down. One night after work a friend and I were driving home. Being tired I kind of curled up in the passenger seat and laid back. A drunk caused us to crash and I was ejected onto the highway and ended up in a coma with near fatal injuries (the police even investigated it as a fatal accident since I was only given a 5-10% chance of survival). So after months of ICU, regular hospital, rehab hospital (the place where you have to relearn everything from walking to talking again). I was put on morphine and oxy for pain.

Fast forward to now. I am tired of taking pills or using dope just to feel "normal". I don't even get high or feel good, its become something I need just so I don't get sick. The pills don't work anymore and I don't want to increase my dose. So I joined blue light to hear from people about the best way to get off this stuff. I'm a parent, I work six sometimes seven days a week, and am "functioning" I guess you would say. Nobody in my life even knows. Even when I meet people they would never guess I am reliant on opiates and opioids just to get through the day.

So there's my basic introduction. There is more, obviously, but I tried to do a cliff notes version.

Pardon me to ask, and sorry if I sound exactly like the typical newb, but which forum would I use to get advice about getting off opiates/opioids?

Thank you all in advance.

GCS
 
Yeah. I have set a date I both want and need to be clean by and am going to just use the next two weeks to say goodbye, then do a 15 day taper. I think. Hopefully. If all goes well, which we know life doesn't work that way.

Doesn't help living in Philly.. Knowing worse comes to worse I can get more if needed... Before I had tried dope and even realized I was addicted to pain meds I ran out early one month. I felt horrible and my back felt exactly like labor contractions.. I was like wtf?... Then I was at the hospital and they gave me some meds for a couple days and I was thinking "this won't help.." Except ten mins after taking it everything was gone. I realized, holy crap, how the hell did this happen? Another time I went two days cold turkey. Not willingly. Ran out early. Counting down the hours til the pharmacy opened it was the longest fifty hours ever. I didn't know about stuff like loperimide, Tagamet, etc.

It sucks it doesn't even "feel good" anymore. I remember taking a 7.5 perc after dental surgery and being completely messed up. Now I could take 6 30s and feel a little warm and fuzzy for maybe thirty minutes tops, if I'm lucky. I wish tolerance didn't happen, wouldn't that be wonderful.

Most wonderful of all would be a world without the stigma attached to taking pain killers. Anytime I'm honest with someone about it, especially if I'm at the hospital for something, I'm immediately labeled a drug seeker and disregarded. I'm tired of that. I had gall stones and the doc was nice til she read the meds I was on. Then she came over, said my blood looks fine, and was going to discharge me. I knew something was wrong so she sighed and ordered an u/s. I was writhing in pain and begged for ADVIL! Didn't even ask for any opiate.. She said "well, I can't give you anything.."... Not even Advil or Tylenol. Then I finally got pissed off and left. Turns out I had a stone stuck in the duct but it resolved itself, painfully, at home. But it seems I have to a) lie, b) be honest and labeled, or c)just get off, and try it clean. Since I am not a good liar, don't feel like being labeled something for life since now everything follows you around, I guess I'm at choice C.

Are you still on any thing or are you clean, and if so how long?
 
Hi - Welcome to Bluelight.

I'm a few weeks off opiates.
It's unfortunate the stigma attached to drugs when alcohol is the number one killer.
There are many meds to get off opiates, and articles on how to taper… and otc regimens out there…

Maybe you know but if you have any questions, I'm around. :)
 
suboxone seems best suited for your situation ! but if your concerned what other people think then i don't know what to tell ya. every time i told a dr that i was on meds i would get the same reaction. maybe you should try Kratom. its rather cheep to order online and is plant based ! if your set on doing a detox you should consider getting gabapentin and some clonidine, maybe a good benzo too ! additionally mixing some physical therapy's when your through the worst of it. I have had good luck treating my pain with a combo of meds, PT, acupuncture, and massage. good luck :)
 
Sorry to hear bout your accident and the position you've been put in because of it.
I wish you luck on the long journey to "opiate-free", been there through the fire now but it's always a "part of you".
I know you dont take for recreation and clearly only as needed through RX's but still, shaking off opiates isn't as easy as 1 2 3, but i think you know that.

See ya around the forum.

OH almost forgot!
Welcome to Bluelight! :)

-HOOD
 
21 days clean. I had to go to rehab. I'm there now, 90 days is my stay. Came willingly because I was gonna die. Opiate user, benzos, anything I could get my hands on after a while. Being sober feels amazing and withdraw ended up not being that bad with no detox meds. I have a long way to go but my life is already changing. I wish you much luck bro. Keep your head up. Sobriety is a blessing.
 
Gotta say bro, you sound alot like me when it comes to being an addict. Im 30, but since the age 20 it was moms vicoden, to lortab, to oxycontin, oxycontin to roxys (op change), dilauded to opana<-my fav, fentanyl patches, back to a long few years of straight roxys & some fire china white off the streets of J-ville. Hell i even took Suboxone off and on throughout those 8 of 10 years. My addiction/tolerance was so bad I was literally shooting 7 roxys 3-4 times a day. Being that I had lots of money(rich ass parents, my own business, lots of pawn-able things I regretfully lost) life insurance settlement from my mothers death ($70k) which I blew every f'n penny of, I had the ability to build that kind of ridiculous tolerance with ease, & it could ONLY be of Gods grace that im still here alive today..

So onto my suggestions. As of now I am 1 month clean of of all opiods. Not even suboxone. If I can give you any advice it would be to TAPER. Whatever your gonna use subs, roxy, whatever. I know it seems like mission impossible taking something without the intentions of getting high and just to maintain but basically you detox yourself during the taper. Find or make a good tapering program with your choice of opiod and actually stick with it...it can be over a course of 2 weeks if u can make the taper gradually decrease in a comfortable way for your means.

When that time comes and you are done. Get the thomas recipe and take a few days off to rest. Your gonns be tired as hell which was my least favorite part. At this point I went to a physciatrist and was brutally honest about everything. She perscribed me adderall and clonodine. I am ADD but I wanted it purely to keep me from feeling tired. Clonodine will keep you from getting the chills cold sweats which would be minor anyways after the tapering process.

So thats what worked for me. After a good month you will start to feel like your pre-addict self again, which will blow your mind!! Pray too. God really does help when you ask. Good luck.
 
Hiya GCS15. So very sorry to hear of all you've been through. If you check out the recovery forums (The Dark Side n Mental Health) they would help n support you. Also Other Drugs, one of the Focus sub-forums, is very good in supporting people who are trying to come off opiates / painkillers.

Feel free to PM me if you 'd like someone to talk to.

Oh - and welcome to Bluelight.

Evey
 
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