mjl22881
Bluelighter
Greetings fellow BlueLighters!
After several years of merely browsing the forums after random internet searches, usually late at night under the influence of one substance or another I have finally taken the plunge and joined this fantastic community. Instead of being a mere outside observer I have decided to become an active observer.
My reasons are varied as to why it has taken me so long to do so and I will get more into them as I go along but in the interest of being concise and to the point I will briefly state that my main motivation to join is that I've taken another plunge of sorts. After many years of drug use (and the inevitable abuse due to the nature of the beast) I have become an IV drug user since the first of the year. I'm thirty-three years old and have been using psychoactive substances of one sort or another since I was fifteen years old. As a result, I am here for harm reduction and to share any knowledge I have from my years of experience.
I guess this is where I'm supposed to tell everyone a bit about myself. I'll keep this as short as possible so I don't bore the living snot out of you fine people! I live in northeast Ohio, where I was born and raised. I actually just moved back here from NC in September to be with the love of my life who I went to high school with. Kicking myself in the head as the weather is just a touch nicer down there than here right now. It's been a rough couple of months, to be honest. That girl, not just "that girl" but "THE girl" are on a break right now after some dishonest actions on my part and her miscarrying our baby at the first of the year.
But, I digress, I've done several monster shots of some damn good dope throughout the course of the day so I'm feeling quite talkative, sorry if I ramble on! I'm also a writer, yes a real writer and not a starving artist who used the title to justify unemployment, hehe. I'm publishing my first historical fiction piece called "When Eagles Fall" about a WWII veteran and his plight through and after the war. The book is to be published this summer. I also work as an independent journalist and have been syndicated in smaller publications - that's my daily work to pay bills. I majored in history and journalism in college and combine the two for good use in my writing.
My using career had a fairly typical progression and I consider myself a heavy hitter when it comes to mind altering substances. It'd be shorter to list the drugs I haven't done than to list the ones I have. Way past the experimental phase with just about everything. I began smoking pot in middle school. Freshman year in college, back in '99 and '00 I added on to that cocaine, meth, copious amounts, actually unbelievable brain cell destroying amounts of MDMA. I was probably eating an average of a dozen or more rolls a week for several years in college as I was fairly active in the rave and underground music scene. This meant that I also became well acquainted with other great chemicals - LSD, the 2C family of compounds, you name it I stuffed it, plugged it, hooted it. Ya know how it goes ya'll?
After college I kind of stepped away from the party scene and indulged mainly in the softer side of things - alcohol, some pot, shrooms here and there, lots of amphetamines, dextroamphetamine with benzos for the edge became my daily companion for several years. Really and truly, the phenethylamine group of drugs were my first real love. As a writer uppers helped me be, as I saw it, a little sharper and a great enhancer to my creativity.
That was my first true love but then I met my REAL love - opiates/opioids. Started with good olds hydrocodone. I must have been about twenty-seven or so and I remember taking five or six hydro 5's my first time. I was in absolute heaven and I felt like that warm blanket it shrouded me in, the comfort it provided was where I was supposed to be all my life. I was home baby! God, what I wouldn't give to be blasted and nodded out on 30 or so MG's of hydro.
The natural progression of an opioid habit and addiction ensued. I added all the other opioids to the list in the next six years with the tolerance skyrocketing rapidly. I didn't and had to intention of touching the needle over that period though. Subconsciously I was longing to do so, however. All my heroes were junkies so shouldn't I dabble? I mean, I would visit a hospital here and there for a fix so I knew what IV morphine or dilaudid felt like. I was just waiting for the chance. By the time I took the plunge and pushed the plunger it took enough opioids to kill an elephant for me to get off. Two hundred MGs of oxy orally or sniffed was nothing for me.
It was inevitable, like I said, the natural progression of things. Several months ago a friend of mine got some dope and there were clean spikes. I got the fuck its, my friend was an experienced IV user and I was sick of the amount of other opioids it took for me to get right. I shot about a nice .15 of some dirty ass tar and got that old feeling like the first time I did ops.
It's been about four times a week since that day a few months ago when I first used gear with a spike. I'll spend about a hundred a time and make it last the better part of a day. The guys I run with are old pros at this game and they've taught me well. My best friend from high school is now my dope buddy. I have been taught and through research on this site and others feel I'm being as safe as I can be. Always using safe and clean rigs, never sharing any tools, alcohol at site of stick, etc.
If I'm going to do it I'm going to do it right God damn it! My biggest problem is that I'm really hard to hit, my veins are horribly hidden and roll - and I'm in great shape! So, after writing this little novel I'm here to learn as much more as I can and for harm reduction so I don't go the way of the dodo because of the monkey on my back.
Anyways, sorry for the book I've written here. I'll get going and look forward to getting to know everyone here. I'm going to go troll the forums for awhile until I can drift off to sleep! Goodnight everyone, looking forward to some good convo!
After several years of merely browsing the forums after random internet searches, usually late at night under the influence of one substance or another I have finally taken the plunge and joined this fantastic community. Instead of being a mere outside observer I have decided to become an active observer.
My reasons are varied as to why it has taken me so long to do so and I will get more into them as I go along but in the interest of being concise and to the point I will briefly state that my main motivation to join is that I've taken another plunge of sorts. After many years of drug use (and the inevitable abuse due to the nature of the beast) I have become an IV drug user since the first of the year. I'm thirty-three years old and have been using psychoactive substances of one sort or another since I was fifteen years old. As a result, I am here for harm reduction and to share any knowledge I have from my years of experience.
I guess this is where I'm supposed to tell everyone a bit about myself. I'll keep this as short as possible so I don't bore the living snot out of you fine people! I live in northeast Ohio, where I was born and raised. I actually just moved back here from NC in September to be with the love of my life who I went to high school with. Kicking myself in the head as the weather is just a touch nicer down there than here right now. It's been a rough couple of months, to be honest. That girl, not just "that girl" but "THE girl" are on a break right now after some dishonest actions on my part and her miscarrying our baby at the first of the year.
But, I digress, I've done several monster shots of some damn good dope throughout the course of the day so I'm feeling quite talkative, sorry if I ramble on! I'm also a writer, yes a real writer and not a starving artist who used the title to justify unemployment, hehe. I'm publishing my first historical fiction piece called "When Eagles Fall" about a WWII veteran and his plight through and after the war. The book is to be published this summer. I also work as an independent journalist and have been syndicated in smaller publications - that's my daily work to pay bills. I majored in history and journalism in college and combine the two for good use in my writing.
My using career had a fairly typical progression and I consider myself a heavy hitter when it comes to mind altering substances. It'd be shorter to list the drugs I haven't done than to list the ones I have. Way past the experimental phase with just about everything. I began smoking pot in middle school. Freshman year in college, back in '99 and '00 I added on to that cocaine, meth, copious amounts, actually unbelievable brain cell destroying amounts of MDMA. I was probably eating an average of a dozen or more rolls a week for several years in college as I was fairly active in the rave and underground music scene. This meant that I also became well acquainted with other great chemicals - LSD, the 2C family of compounds, you name it I stuffed it, plugged it, hooted it. Ya know how it goes ya'll?
After college I kind of stepped away from the party scene and indulged mainly in the softer side of things - alcohol, some pot, shrooms here and there, lots of amphetamines, dextroamphetamine with benzos for the edge became my daily companion for several years. Really and truly, the phenethylamine group of drugs were my first real love. As a writer uppers helped me be, as I saw it, a little sharper and a great enhancer to my creativity.
That was my first true love but then I met my REAL love - opiates/opioids. Started with good olds hydrocodone. I must have been about twenty-seven or so and I remember taking five or six hydro 5's my first time. I was in absolute heaven and I felt like that warm blanket it shrouded me in, the comfort it provided was where I was supposed to be all my life. I was home baby! God, what I wouldn't give to be blasted and nodded out on 30 or so MG's of hydro.
The natural progression of an opioid habit and addiction ensued. I added all the other opioids to the list in the next six years with the tolerance skyrocketing rapidly. I didn't and had to intention of touching the needle over that period though. Subconsciously I was longing to do so, however. All my heroes were junkies so shouldn't I dabble? I mean, I would visit a hospital here and there for a fix so I knew what IV morphine or dilaudid felt like. I was just waiting for the chance. By the time I took the plunge and pushed the plunger it took enough opioids to kill an elephant for me to get off. Two hundred MGs of oxy orally or sniffed was nothing for me.
It was inevitable, like I said, the natural progression of things. Several months ago a friend of mine got some dope and there were clean spikes. I got the fuck its, my friend was an experienced IV user and I was sick of the amount of other opioids it took for me to get right. I shot about a nice .15 of some dirty ass tar and got that old feeling like the first time I did ops.
It's been about four times a week since that day a few months ago when I first used gear with a spike. I'll spend about a hundred a time and make it last the better part of a day. The guys I run with are old pros at this game and they've taught me well. My best friend from high school is now my dope buddy. I have been taught and through research on this site and others feel I'm being as safe as I can be. Always using safe and clean rigs, never sharing any tools, alcohol at site of stick, etc.
If I'm going to do it I'm going to do it right God damn it! My biggest problem is that I'm really hard to hit, my veins are horribly hidden and roll - and I'm in great shape! So, after writing this little novel I'm here to learn as much more as I can and for harm reduction so I don't go the way of the dodo because of the monkey on my back.
Anyways, sorry for the book I've written here. I'll get going and look forward to getting to know everyone here. I'm going to go troll the forums for awhile until I can drift off to sleep! Goodnight everyone, looking forward to some good convo!
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