Dynamics
Greenlighter
Bluelight,
I can't tell you how many times a day i visited this site for any and ALL questions reguarding the recent uses ive had, but i can tell you that without this site, im sure by now there would have been a "complication."
Let me introduce myself and give you a bit of backstory, i have been an addict for over 8 years, starting small with pot, and gradually doing more, and different things, up until about 2 years ago when i realized i have a full-blown habit to anything that can be IV'd. It didnt really matter what the drug of choice was, heroin, dilaudid, morphine, each one with its own unique "flavor" and fun... I used bluelight daily to search on how to "safely harm myself" as ive come to call it, but i decided that now would be the best time for me to stop lurking and contribute!
After 2 years of this heavy addiction, not being able to hold a job, living with mom and dad while almost 30 years old, etc etc, the slap in the face has finally become one that i can feel, and ive decided to try to quit. This is my first time really attempting to do so, and i am definitely scared! I have withdrawn from opiates before and i know now that the reason everyone DOESN'T just quit is because of that evil, evil, sickness that comes with quitting. Believe me my friends, if it were acceptable, and i wasnt such a bum from doing so, id be high everyday all day forever. The problem is, im not in a posistion to be that luxurious, and since ive basically become the person we all never expect to become when starting this adventure, i am going to give this my best shot.
I have readied myself with suboxone, and i am hoping that this will be enough to keep the symptoms at bay, but i do not have any support, nor anyone that i can talk to about what im going through. I decided that my best online source Bluelight would be the best place for me to look for people that are similar to myself, and so im hoping that with your help, i can overcome this addiction and get back on track to a life where i dont wake up and wish that i had made different choices. I am making THIS choice right NOW, to change, and even just writing this introduction is helping me to vent my feelings, so if nothing else comes from our relationship Bluelight, thank you for all the information, and thank you for giving me a non-judgemental space to share my current emotions, it has helped me more than you can imagine.
I can't tell you how many times a day i visited this site for any and ALL questions reguarding the recent uses ive had, but i can tell you that without this site, im sure by now there would have been a "complication."
Let me introduce myself and give you a bit of backstory, i have been an addict for over 8 years, starting small with pot, and gradually doing more, and different things, up until about 2 years ago when i realized i have a full-blown habit to anything that can be IV'd. It didnt really matter what the drug of choice was, heroin, dilaudid, morphine, each one with its own unique "flavor" and fun... I used bluelight daily to search on how to "safely harm myself" as ive come to call it, but i decided that now would be the best time for me to stop lurking and contribute!
After 2 years of this heavy addiction, not being able to hold a job, living with mom and dad while almost 30 years old, etc etc, the slap in the face has finally become one that i can feel, and ive decided to try to quit. This is my first time really attempting to do so, and i am definitely scared! I have withdrawn from opiates before and i know now that the reason everyone DOESN'T just quit is because of that evil, evil, sickness that comes with quitting. Believe me my friends, if it were acceptable, and i wasnt such a bum from doing so, id be high everyday all day forever. The problem is, im not in a posistion to be that luxurious, and since ive basically become the person we all never expect to become when starting this adventure, i am going to give this my best shot.
I have readied myself with suboxone, and i am hoping that this will be enough to keep the symptoms at bay, but i do not have any support, nor anyone that i can talk to about what im going through. I decided that my best online source Bluelight would be the best place for me to look for people that are similar to myself, and so im hoping that with your help, i can overcome this addiction and get back on track to a life where i dont wake up and wish that i had made different choices. I am making THIS choice right NOW, to change, and even just writing this introduction is helping me to vent my feelings, so if nothing else comes from our relationship Bluelight, thank you for all the information, and thank you for giving me a non-judgemental space to share my current emotions, it has helped me more than you can imagine.
