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Greenlighter
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A few months ago, I tried LSD for the first time. Without going too in depth, the trip went poorly. My first memories of it were of a beautiful experience that I hope to seek again someday, however after about the first twenty minutes, my memory gets kinda shotty. I can only recall brief and confusing snippets of that night. A friend of mine, also tripping for the first time that night, had kinda lost it; he laughed maniacally throughout the night, could not be calmed down, and ended up with a broken nose and concussion. The rest of the details don't really matter, so I'll get on to my main question/topic.
A few weeks after that experience, I was laying in bed trying to sleep. As is common, I was letting my mind wander (not dreaming, just thinking). While thinking, it is a normal occurrence for one to envision sounds in their mind, however the difference between imagined sounds that are related to one's thoughts and actual sounds is very easily noticeable. Anyway, in my imagination, I was thinking about someone laughing. Before I could realize what was happening, this "imagined laughter" started to transition to real laughter, very similar to the laughter of my unfortunate friend during the awful trip several weeks prior. As the sound became "realer" (it was now as if someone was in the room with me, truly laughing) and louder, it took control of me, and I found myself unable to do anything to stop it. It was maddening and panicking to say the least. As the sound grew and grew, I was eventually able to jerk myself upright, finally stopping it. After about an hour, I fell into an uneasy sleep.
The next incedent didn't occur until weeks later. It was a similar situation. I was in bed, and the sounds arose from everyday imagined sounds (if that makes any sense). This time however, it was voices. I did not recognize them, and though they were speaking english, the words did not connect in a logical way. Remembering my previous experience, I attempted to jerk myself upright to end the experience, however, I found myself to be in my first ever state of sleep paralysis (I was not actually asleep), preventing me from moving at all. This panicked me, as I had no idea what to do to stop the voices, which were unbearably loud at this point, blocking out all other though. I attempted to "fight" the voices with my own thoughts, but this "hurt" (very difficult to explain). After several seconds of struggling (though it felt like hours), I was able to free myself from the sleep paralysis, again stopping the sounds in my head.
These first two experiences were the most notable, though there have been many many more just like them. They usually occur when I am trying to fall asleep, however can sometimes occur daring everyday activities. After a few occured, I began to get curious, and would plan to simply allow the next one to "happen" (not do anything to stop it and see where it leads), and I attempted this at first; however, even though I was able to remain calm at first, having some experience with what was happening, I always begin to panic and freak out inside my head after a certain point.
It has been about 8 months since that acid trip, and these episodes have never occured before then. I would say about 50 have occured since. I am 16, therefore my only real outlet to healthcare professionals are through my parents. Id like to avoid them knowing about me using LSD, however I would definitely provide the information to them if it was necessary for the investigation/treatment of whatever is happening. I was wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences, and if this is an issue that should be brought to the attention of my parents, or if it will resolve itself. Any and all help is appreciated, thanks!
A few weeks after that experience, I was laying in bed trying to sleep. As is common, I was letting my mind wander (not dreaming, just thinking). While thinking, it is a normal occurrence for one to envision sounds in their mind, however the difference between imagined sounds that are related to one's thoughts and actual sounds is very easily noticeable. Anyway, in my imagination, I was thinking about someone laughing. Before I could realize what was happening, this "imagined laughter" started to transition to real laughter, very similar to the laughter of my unfortunate friend during the awful trip several weeks prior. As the sound became "realer" (it was now as if someone was in the room with me, truly laughing) and louder, it took control of me, and I found myself unable to do anything to stop it. It was maddening and panicking to say the least. As the sound grew and grew, I was eventually able to jerk myself upright, finally stopping it. After about an hour, I fell into an uneasy sleep.
The next incedent didn't occur until weeks later. It was a similar situation. I was in bed, and the sounds arose from everyday imagined sounds (if that makes any sense). This time however, it was voices. I did not recognize them, and though they were speaking english, the words did not connect in a logical way. Remembering my previous experience, I attempted to jerk myself upright to end the experience, however, I found myself to be in my first ever state of sleep paralysis (I was not actually asleep), preventing me from moving at all. This panicked me, as I had no idea what to do to stop the voices, which were unbearably loud at this point, blocking out all other though. I attempted to "fight" the voices with my own thoughts, but this "hurt" (very difficult to explain). After several seconds of struggling (though it felt like hours), I was able to free myself from the sleep paralysis, again stopping the sounds in my head.
These first two experiences were the most notable, though there have been many many more just like them. They usually occur when I am trying to fall asleep, however can sometimes occur daring everyday activities. After a few occured, I began to get curious, and would plan to simply allow the next one to "happen" (not do anything to stop it and see where it leads), and I attempted this at first; however, even though I was able to remain calm at first, having some experience with what was happening, I always begin to panic and freak out inside my head after a certain point.
It has been about 8 months since that acid trip, and these episodes have never occured before then. I would say about 50 have occured since. I am 16, therefore my only real outlet to healthcare professionals are through my parents. Id like to avoid them knowing about me using LSD, however I would definitely provide the information to them if it was necessary for the investigation/treatment of whatever is happening. I was wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences, and if this is an issue that should be brought to the attention of my parents, or if it will resolve itself. Any and all help is appreciated, thanks!
