hatred

[MrLovaLovammmmmm]

hehe ok i got bored again. so yeah forgvie the grammatical errors
"you left me angry, full of rage and pain...
you will never comprhend my hatred for you that
remains...
its been almost a year now, since we last
spoke...
you left me confused, tired, lonely and broke...
i guess i was naive to think we had something
more...
was so sure we had connected, something i had
never felt before...
you were seeing a mutal friend at the time and
i knew you were both close...
but i thought if i gave it enough time youd see
that drugs didnt mean the most...
i was the perfect gentlemen, wouldnt even try
for a kiss...
i loved you too much to ruin what already did
exsist...
i wouldve done anything in my power and beyond
for you, and would still...
given my life, stolen or killed for you,
because with love my heart you did fill...
you did enough killing though, when you shut me
completely out...
the heart can only take so much damage, before
the fire starts to burn out...
heh maybe some people are right when they say
love aint shit...
but if theres something more important in life
than that, then ill never find it...
why must this thing called love be so hard and
complicated?...
how can you turn what was once love into so
much hatred?...
everytime seeing you cuddled up with another
guy made me furious...
but i kept it all in, even though i was totally
envious...
im hoping this lesson will prepare me for my
next love if there is another...
even if there is though im not sure i could
be as close as we were with some other...
girl that i would compare to you and you
alone...
watching movies, going to the mall and those
talks on the phone...
you have carved yourself into my heart and
mind...
nothing will ever take your place, not even the
test of time...
one other question though that keeps festering
in my head...
and even if i find the answer it will still
haunt me till im dead...
how can you hate somebody with as much hatred as
there can be...
yet still be in love with her? would you answer
me this please...
i do not regret all the times we had bad or
good...
so do this one favor for me if you could...
if i had one wish it would be to remove you from
my memories forever...
for nothing can get us back to the way things
were, not even if its us together..."

 

[goodnitestar]

I understand how you feel , all to much , just moved out from living with a guy for a year, he doesnt seem to even care, or miss us. And he never seemed to want to spend time with me, always looking to others for fun. I dont think that was the case with you , but a little, I was the perfect girl and did everything for him , lost myself in him for a while, still hoping hell come around. Not sure why I even care , i can just see him drinking and flirting , just as he did before, without regard for me sitting across the room , pretending to ignore.