Mental Health Has my drug use effected my IQ/cognitive function, etc? IMPORTANT

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Hello Bluelight, I am looking for serious help with this. I will start off with some backround information on me.

I am only 16 years old, and as long as I can remember I have been told that I am extremely intelligent. I have been diagnosed with extreme anxiety, which I believe to be social-related, ADHD, ODD, and Bipolar Disorder. I am currently on no medication for it. I use a fairly big amount of drugs and believe I have a polysubstance addiction. Let me outline some of my drug use. I am about 5'9 150lbs.

Today I smoked about .2 of extremely high quality crack, I have smoked crack approximately 20 times.
Yesterday I smoked about .3 of high quality crack.

The day before, upon waking up I smoked 20~mg of high quality crystal meth. 3 hours later I dropped 300ug of LSD, and smoked about .2 of high quality crack while [peaking, along with marijuana.

The day before that I smoked about 15~mg of high quality crystal, and 4 hours after dropped 200ug of LSD along with smoking marijuana.

I have used LSD about 15 times, usually doing doses of 100-300ug.

For the past 3 weeks, up until 2 days ago I have been smoking between .1 and .4 of high quality crystal about 4-6 times per week along with marijuana, and occasional alcohol and crack use. I have smoked ice about 50-60 times.

For about 8 months, up until a month ago, I was drinking alcohol 5-7 days a week. My average use was 500-750ml of vodka by myself per night. The last month to month and a half I have just been drinking very rarely, maybe once every week or two and lower amounts.

Oxycontin- I have used oxy about 30 times, 10-40mg doses.

Heroin- I have used heroin 3 times, all of very high quality. On New Year's my friend gave me 2 .025 shots of extremely high quality china white. I have also smoked half a point of brown h once, and snorted a point of china white one other time.

Tobacco- I have been smoking daily since I was 12. Lately I smoke between half a pack to a pack per day.

Marijuana- Fairly often use since 13, not daily anymore but I did smoke it dail;y for a long period of time.

Ketamine- I have used K about 20 times, has been in extremely high uality shards almost every time.

RCs- I have used 2CE about 5 times, 2C-P 2 or 3, 2C-B and 2C-I twice each, and 2C-T7 3 or 4 times, as well as 25-i 5 or 6 times and an unknown opiate RC one time.

Cocaine- I have used cocaine about 50 times, mostly when offered free lines.

MDMA- WAY too many times to count. Used frequently since 13, up until amonth ago I had gotten to the point of using it 3-6 times a week with .5-1 gram used in a day mosstly insuffated but some oral use. Majority of it was very high quality with no active cuts but I have used lower quality before, and stuff cut with meth, etc, rarely though. I have also used MDa about 20 times. One day I did .8 in a day of stuff
that was pure enough to have most peole rolling balls off 120mgs.

Mushrooms- First physcoactive drug I ever ingested besides alcohol. Done em about 10 times, usually 3-5 gram doses.

I believe that's most of them, and should give you guys a good enough idea of my drug use. Thank you in advance, I really appreciate any and all help you guys can help me with that has anything to do with my drug use.

EDIT: I know some of yyou are going torcommend seeing a doctor but that is not gong to happen. My mom would be devestated if she knew my drug use was to this extent.
 
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''I have been diagnosed with extreme anxiety, which I believe to be social-related, ADHD, ODD, and Bipolar Disorder. I am currently on no medication for it.''

That's a good thing: unless you dramatically cut down or even stop using recreational drugs, I don't think it would be beneficial to add too much ''therapeutic'' ones... Some, or maybe most of your perceived/diagnosed(?) disorders are probably exacerbated or entirely created by your drug abuse. Yes, if you already use at 16 as much as you mentioned, you have a huge drug problem. No, I don't think it affected your IQ yet, but it might very well screw you and your family up emotionally big fucking time in the near future, and eventually some of the drugs you mentioned will indeed be cognitively detrimental if you keep on abusing them. Do seek professional help - or get your shit together asap!
 
All i can say is holy shit! If all this has not affected your cognitive skills by now then it certainly will do if you carry it on. Your brain is still developing at age 16 - drugs like MDMA and all the physcadelics you mentioned will defintely have a negative effect. I think you need to ask yourself the question of whether you really want to go down this road - drugs are only fun recreationally, when you become dependent on them both physically and physcologically then the fun ends. At this age you still have the strength and will power to get out - if you continue this into your mid twenties or even just for another year or two - not only will your cognitive skills be affected but also your diagnosed disorders will no doubt manifest themselves.
I would say, please seek help or you are going to ruin your life.
 
heres my advice... stay from the mdma and heroin all tovether till your 21. it sikl fuck up your growing body and heroin does nothing but make murdering zombies... dont take too many drugs with alchohol and all tovether ide just keep it organic.. maybe some dxm but other ghan that ide say just use weed nd shrooms.... if you start feeling a sorta depression not motivated dead like feeling stop using drugs all together till it stops this is common with mdma... it can take up to anyear to stop nust drink water n shit bla bla bla but foreal u got a big of a problem can i suggest only useig weed alcohol tobacco dxm shrooms and cocaine?
 
I have to ask do you actually get a satisfying buzz with such constant use? In my experience just throwing drugs at the wall and seeing what sticks doesn't work very well.
Less is more for sure.
Interested to hear strait from the horses mouth tho, do you enjoy it? Is it worth it?
 
jesus christ that is a lot of drugs for a 16 year old; how much money do u have??

yeah your drug use will affect your ability to learn, focus and keep your shit together in school. Luckily, once the drugs wear off and you are sober, you should be back to normal. If you keep doing this for years though, you're going to risk cognitive deficits at some point, most of which will heal themselves but not necessarily all, so be careful. The lifestyle using that many drugs is going to have an impact on your education.

alcohol/meth/mdma/crack will probably hurt you the most. If you want to trip, trip once a month. If you want to get high, smoke cannabis but stay away from stims/opiates/benzos. If you have ADD get a script for a pharm stim.

just tell your mom you want to see a psychiatrist and get a diagnoses because you are having trouble in school; you will have to stay relatively clean for the Dr to give you a proper diagnosis though. If you keep that kind of drug use up you're probably going to end up with a psychotic episode at some point.
 
I am going to move this to the mental health forum (it's either that or the dark side so the mods might move it to the latter).

Homeless --> Mental Health
 
How can your parents, teachers, friends, etc. NOT know??

Drug abuse can affect you physically, emotionally, psychologically, volitionally, and spiritually. There is a hole that you are trying to fill with drugs.
As a teen, drug abuse such as yours will retard you in almost all those areas. It will keep you from building a healthy self esteem and healthy coping skills. You asked about IQ? Yes. You are most likely limiting your future potential to learn and process. You are numbing your brain's cpu and slowing the clock cycles down. It's like a bunch of malware on your computer, only the damage could be permanent at some point.

I know some of you are going to recommend seeing a doctor but that is not gong to happen. My mom would be devastated if she knew my drug use was to this extent.

She is going to find out. That is inevitable. It really does work out smoother if you go to her and tell her you have a drug problem and need some help. You can probably get away with not telling her to what extent, but that you just can't stop at this time.

I really fear for you. I know when I was that age I thought I knew what I was doing and I had it under control. The fact that you posted what basically is a cry for help here means part of you knows you are out of control. Get help before you really fuck up bad and wind up dead, or worse... wind up being a stroke victim who needs constant attention and can't do shit for yourself.

I know this sounds harsh but if I had someone tell me what I know now and was able to swallow my pride and listen, I could have saved myself a lot of fucking up.


Good luck. Swallow the pride and the fear. Like I said, it goes better when you ask for help on your own rather than racking up a lot of failed opportunities, ER visits, and police charges before you opt for treatment instead of jail.
 
Hmmm...well, think of how much more your mom is going to be devastated when she finds out you are in jail or in the hospital from an OD. Or better yet when she walks into your room and finds you dead.

Not being mean but straight forward-if you are as intelligent as you say you are then you know damn well that using this amount of drugs at your age is going to fuck your life and your intelligence up. It doesn't take much looking to find information on that. As someone else stated, at your age your brain (and body for that matter) is till developing. Some of the things you are doing would cause damage eventually to a grown man so to ask if it going to damage a still developing brain? There is a big difference.

Also to reiterate what someone else said, its one thing to do drugs for fun or recreationally but a whole 'nother ballgame to go down the street of addiction.

Even if you don't tell your mom everything you best seek help somewhere. Maybe if you were being treated correctly with some type of pharms you wouldn't feel the need to abuse so many drugs to the extent you do.
 
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