Hello Bluelight, I am looking for serious help with this. I will start off with some backround information on me.
I am only 16 years old, and as long as I can remember I have been told that I am extremely intelligent. I have been diagnosed with extreme anxiety, which I believe to be social-related, ADHD, ODD, and Bipolar Disorder. I am currently on no medication for it. I use a fairly big amount of drugs and believe I have a polysubstance addiction. Let me outline some of my drug use. I am about 5'9 150lbs.
Today I smoked about .2 of extremely high quality crack, I have smoked crack approximately 20 times.
Yesterday I smoked about .3 of high quality crack.
The day before, upon waking up I smoked 20~mg of high quality crystal meth. 3 hours later I dropped 300ug of LSD, and smoked about .2 of high quality crack while [peaking, along with marijuana.
The day before that I smoked about 15~mg of high quality crystal, and 4 hours after dropped 200ug of LSD along with smoking marijuana.
I have used LSD about 15 times, usually doing doses of 100-300ug.
For the past 3 weeks, up until 2 days ago I have been smoking between .1 and .4 of high quality crystal about 4-6 times per week along with marijuana, and occasional alcohol and crack use. I have smoked ice about 50-60 times.
For about 8 months, up until a month ago, I was drinking alcohol 5-7 days a week. My average use was 500-750ml of vodka by myself per night. The last month to month and a half I have just been drinking very rarely, maybe once every week or two and lower amounts.
Oxycontin- I have used oxy about 30 times, 10-40mg doses.
Heroin- I have used heroin 3 times, all of very high quality. On New Year's my friend gave me 2 .025 shots of extremely high quality china white. I have also smoked half a point of brown h once, and snorted a point of china white one other time.
Tobacco- I have been smoking daily since I was 12. Lately I smoke between half a pack to a pack per day.
Marijuana- Fairly often use since 13, not daily anymore but I did smoke it dail;y for a long period of time.
Ketamine- I have used K about 20 times, has been in extremely high uality shards almost every time.
RCs- I have used 2CE about 5 times, 2C-P 2 or 3, 2C-B and 2C-I twice each, and 2C-T7 3 or 4 times, as well as 25-i 5 or 6 times and an unknown opiate RC one time.
Cocaine- I have used cocaine about 50 times, mostly when offered free lines.
MDMA- WAY too many times to count. Used frequently since 13, up until amonth ago I had gotten to the point of using it 3-6 times a week with .5-1 gram used in a day mosstly insuffated but some oral use. Majority of it was very high quality with no active cuts but I have used lower quality before, and stuff cut with meth, etc, rarely though. I have also used MDa about 20 times. One day I did .8 in a day of stuff
that was pure enough to have most peole rolling balls off 120mgs.
Mushrooms- First physcoactive drug I ever ingested besides alcohol. Done em about 10 times, usually 3-5 gram doses.
I believe that's most of them, and should give you guys a good enough idea of my drug use. Thank you in advance, I really appreciate any and all help you guys can help me with that has anything to do with my drug use.
EDIT: I know some of yyou are going torcommend seeing a doctor but that is not gong to happen. My mom would be devestated if she knew my drug use was to this extent.
I am only 16 years old, and as long as I can remember I have been told that I am extremely intelligent. I have been diagnosed with extreme anxiety, which I believe to be social-related, ADHD, ODD, and Bipolar Disorder. I am currently on no medication for it. I use a fairly big amount of drugs and believe I have a polysubstance addiction. Let me outline some of my drug use. I am about 5'9 150lbs.
Today I smoked about .2 of extremely high quality crack, I have smoked crack approximately 20 times.
Yesterday I smoked about .3 of high quality crack.
The day before, upon waking up I smoked 20~mg of high quality crystal meth. 3 hours later I dropped 300ug of LSD, and smoked about .2 of high quality crack while [peaking, along with marijuana.
The day before that I smoked about 15~mg of high quality crystal, and 4 hours after dropped 200ug of LSD along with smoking marijuana.
I have used LSD about 15 times, usually doing doses of 100-300ug.
For the past 3 weeks, up until 2 days ago I have been smoking between .1 and .4 of high quality crystal about 4-6 times per week along with marijuana, and occasional alcohol and crack use. I have smoked ice about 50-60 times.
For about 8 months, up until a month ago, I was drinking alcohol 5-7 days a week. My average use was 500-750ml of vodka by myself per night. The last month to month and a half I have just been drinking very rarely, maybe once every week or two and lower amounts.
Oxycontin- I have used oxy about 30 times, 10-40mg doses.
Heroin- I have used heroin 3 times, all of very high quality. On New Year's my friend gave me 2 .025 shots of extremely high quality china white. I have also smoked half a point of brown h once, and snorted a point of china white one other time.
Tobacco- I have been smoking daily since I was 12. Lately I smoke between half a pack to a pack per day.
Marijuana- Fairly often use since 13, not daily anymore but I did smoke it dail;y for a long period of time.
Ketamine- I have used K about 20 times, has been in extremely high uality shards almost every time.
RCs- I have used 2CE about 5 times, 2C-P 2 or 3, 2C-B and 2C-I twice each, and 2C-T7 3 or 4 times, as well as 25-i 5 or 6 times and an unknown opiate RC one time.
Cocaine- I have used cocaine about 50 times, mostly when offered free lines.
MDMA- WAY too many times to count. Used frequently since 13, up until amonth ago I had gotten to the point of using it 3-6 times a week with .5-1 gram used in a day mosstly insuffated but some oral use. Majority of it was very high quality with no active cuts but I have used lower quality before, and stuff cut with meth, etc, rarely though. I have also used MDa about 20 times. One day I did .8 in a day of stuff
that was pure enough to have most peole rolling balls off 120mgs.
Mushrooms- First physcoactive drug I ever ingested besides alcohol. Done em about 10 times, usually 3-5 gram doses.
I believe that's most of them, and should give you guys a good enough idea of my drug use. Thank you in advance, I really appreciate any and all help you guys can help me with that has anything to do with my drug use.
EDIT: I know some of yyou are going torcommend seeing a doctor but that is not gong to happen. My mom would be devestated if she knew my drug use was to this extent.
Last edited: