May 30th is a day that is important to me, depending on what I accept as important. It's the date of a girl's birthday. She was another piece of my life. Meeting her taught me things. Made me believe more what I had doubted, in the past. Not that I don't still doubt, perhaps even more than before, but as well, I potentially have less. I expanded with her. I condensed. I don't know how to say it.
But May 30th is her birthday. And, I was sort of looking for something special to happen. Had my eyes and ears on.
The one thing so far, I guess, that could be, but very well might not be, but made me think anyways, was a girl told me she won't be signing her name "like that" for much longer- as that last name, that she signed with tonight. I am a courier, and this was at a nursing home, where I deliver meds. The nurse (girl) just got married, and her name is Hart (just not legally, yet, I guess). She flaunted her ring to me. "Hart" jumped out, coming as the first new name, or calling attention to a name.
One year after I met this girl, on the day I might have considered her gone, the year before, I suffered what I thought was a heart attack, which I went to the hospital for.
One year after that, I took my first order of the day (which fell one day after, but I made sure I did nothing the day before, the exact anniversary, to avoid another "heart attack"- haha) to a family with the name "Hart", working a pizza delivery job.
Another year came up, and on the same day, my grandmother died. I ate beef liver the night before her funeral, and I didn't know I was allergic to it. I had very bad chest pain during the funeral. I thought I might just die. Like another heart attack.
Exactly one year later, my mom retired, from work.
The girl relates to my mom. I also saw some reflection of my grandmother. Some. Of course, we all reflect. We are all like each other, in ways, and different in ways.
But anyways, I associate her with heart. And "Hart", although not the same, sounds the same.
But May 30th is her birthday. And, I was sort of looking for something special to happen. Had my eyes and ears on.
The one thing so far, I guess, that could be, but very well might not be, but made me think anyways, was a girl told me she won't be signing her name "like that" for much longer- as that last name, that she signed with tonight. I am a courier, and this was at a nursing home, where I deliver meds. The nurse (girl) just got married, and her name is Hart (just not legally, yet, I guess). She flaunted her ring to me. "Hart" jumped out, coming as the first new name, or calling attention to a name.
One year after I met this girl, on the day I might have considered her gone, the year before, I suffered what I thought was a heart attack, which I went to the hospital for.
One year after that, I took my first order of the day (which fell one day after, but I made sure I did nothing the day before, the exact anniversary, to avoid another "heart attack"- haha) to a family with the name "Hart", working a pizza delivery job.
Another year came up, and on the same day, my grandmother died. I ate beef liver the night before her funeral, and I didn't know I was allergic to it. I had very bad chest pain during the funeral. I thought I might just die. Like another heart attack.
Exactly one year later, my mom retired, from work.
The girl relates to my mom. I also saw some reflection of my grandmother. Some. Of course, we all reflect. We are all like each other, in ways, and different in ways.
But anyways, I associate her with heart. And "Hart", although not the same, sounds the same.