It's weird, cause I actually started using bupe back in 2017 because it was cheaper than heroin & I felt like I could just as high off of it.
It was way more convenient cause I could make a $10 strip last me a whole week, where as $50 bucks worth of heroin only lasted me maybe 3 days if I was lucky.
So I just started using bupe instead & then eventually went & got on it legally. Back then I could still get a decent "high" from subs, but it disappeared after awhile.
I'd have to let my tolerance drop to nearly non-existent in order to get that high back though, which as an opioid-addict, it's kind of hard to go without anything long enough to do that. lol
But I've used full agonists again since then, many times & I eventually remembered why they are so much better (for me anyway). They just give stronger pain relief, more euphoria & all that. I'd honestly prefer to be on methadone, but I'm not going to a clinic every day for it, fuck that. lol I can't even get up & go anywhere at all in the morning until after I've dosed my bupe & it's fully kicked in. Plus what happens if my car breaks down or it snows really bad & I can't get to the clinic? The rules & regulations around methadone are so arbitrary & stupid.
Don't get me wrong, I still technically get a very strong "high" from bupe too, even after being on it for 8 years & taking it every day. It's just that the "high" is incredibly lacking for me. Like I even still get the nods from it, but they're not the content/euphoric nods that you'd get from heroin. I don't get any of that "I feel completely content" or pain-free or any euphoria from it like I would from a full agonist. I basically just feel like I'm on a strong sedating opioid all day long, but without any euphoria or any of the good effects of a full agonist. Which kinda sucks.
I know the purpose of maintenance isn't for "getting high", but it is suppose to be about stopping cravings. And I think it would kill my cravings better if I at least got some euphoria or contentedness out of it. Even tramadol still gave me euphoria even when using it day after day & gaining a tolerance to it.
Actually bupe + trams is a great combo. If they allowed people to use a bupe/tram combo, I think I'd feel more satisfied than being on either bupe or trams alone.
But there was a time when bupe was pretty good at getting me feeling great.
Anyways, sorry for the long rant.