Happyness more or less

For the first time in years I feel content even happy. Looking from the outide I shouldn't feel this way but I do. It's kind of strange.

 

Sounds like you had a mug of milo and marshmallows xx

 

That is fucking awesome cj!

I had a moment like that yesterday morning on the way to class. It was so refreshing. The first time I truly experienced happiness (although I'm say more accurately, contentment) was actually probably just a year or year and a half ago, facilitated by dissociative. I have been so relieved to learn since taking a sustained break from them that I am entirely capable of achieving the more wholesome mood states dissociative have facilitated without actually needing to take them to do so.

 

Yeah it was a somewhat fleeting feeling for me unfortunately. However reading my posts and blog from just a year ago really puts into perspective the progress I have made toward being stable.

 

This gives me a much needed Happy.

 

In my experience, this is how happiness comes...in very unexplained moments. Treasure it and don't let the word "deserve' into it at all. I'm having one of those moments right now from reading that you feel happy--ripples in the human pond!