happy!

Today began with me going to sleep around 10:00am, and waking up around 6:30pm. I missed a good football game pissed that my alarm clock didn't wake me up. I think I bashed it to many times.

At 6:30PM things were ok, my roomates were drinking, and were making a ruckus, and had the TV up really loud, so I went to check it out. They were drinking some mojitos (sp?) and green apple things in a bottle. I talked to my friend brandon on AIM and asked him if he had any Ramen Noodles, luckly he did, so thank god! He brought me over 3 packs of Pork flavored Ramen! I signed him in, and we came up to my dorm, and watched a movie with my drunk roomies, while I made the ramen (i was freekn hungry!)
When I was finished with ramen, my roomate asked if we wanted any cheetos. HELL YEAH I WANT CHEESY POOFS!!! So me and my friend brandon helped our selves, leaving our orange dust finger prints all over the fridge and sink lol.
Well I walked my friend back to his dorm and went back upstaris and helped my drunk roomates make a microwaveable cake. (IT WAS BOMB OMG! reeses cup cake stuff?) easy as fuck to make lol well for a sober person it was, but they couldnt do shit.
(tells me that i'm happy being sober )

So we put on a movie, some awesome chinese fighting movie. Oh yeah I'm also devouring this 15,1/2oz bag of cheestos. lol I ended up eating the entire bag throughout the movie!

Oh also I was given a half of a sweet potatoe pie,and 10 tv dinners. That was my highlight of the night. pretty cool
tonight has taken the guilt out of me for now, feels good to have a full tummy.

 

One thing that I learned from my time in therapy a couple years ago, is that it is easy to mistake physiological issues for depression sometimes. At the time, for me it was being tired; no matter how good a day I was having, if I was starting to get sleepy I thought that I was getting depressed, which would start to make me depressed. If I was able to have one, a quick nap was often all I needed to feel much better.

Lately, I haven't been eating quite enough as I'm trying to drop a few BF%. If I'm not careful with my meal timing, I start to get hungry, which gets interpreted as depression about half the time. This however is self-perpetuating, since when I get depressed, I lose most of my motivation to cook, and either eat shit that makes me feel worse or don't eat at all.

Speaking of which, I know that money is tight for you, but damn man you've got to eat some veggies. You're in the south, don't they have collard greens like everywhere there? Dark green leafy veg, while not covering everything that you need nutritionally, pack a ton of good stuff in them. Especially if you don't cook the shit out of them. Red peppers, dark coloured berries (blue, black, etc...) apples and pears are also great. Pretty well any brightly coloured fruit or veg is going to be better for you than a white or pale one. For example, spinach is better as a salad green than romaine, which in turn is miles better than iceberg.

Anyway, sorry for lecturing you, but I've learned over the years that eating well helps heaps toward feeling well. Both mentally and physically.

Take care of yourself D's. Glad you had a happy Thanksgiving!

 

Thanks Dave,
Things are hard for everyone in the south, and living in a dorm without a stove, and just a microwave it's hard to really prepare the kind of food that I like, which requires a stove, and a oven.

Oh how it would be great to make my favorite "stir-fry EVERY VEGGIE you can think of" meal.

Funny, I'm probably one of the only deep southerners that eats healthy, people think all we eat is bbq, and fried chicken but that's just a stereotype.

Thanks