Wow how common is this HPPD!? Seriously I'm kind of freaked out about trying LSD now because it seems so many people on here have it or have had it. I thought it was like a one in a million chance or something.
I wouldn't believe everything people post in the internet. Ive been trying to do some reading on this and it seems like supposed sufferers can't even really describe whats going on? You saw something you thought was a visual? Some dots here and there? Sorry, but I have a hard time believing that is a major issue that you just can't live with and is causing truckloads of anxiety everyday. Of course some people report way more than that, but a lot of the reports really do sound minor.
Look at this report by a moderator here >
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i dont really have full HPPD. i have the symptoms, but they are not debilitating, and they are not as severe as i think would qualify for hppd
after smoking pot for a while (usually weekly) 2 years ago, i noticed a very slight change in the way trees looked. bit more colorful and pretty, couldnt quite put my finger on it"
That's pretty much all he says about it. He saw some trees. They looked maybe a little prettier. Uh oh?
And not trying to bash anyone but this quote sounds relevant :
Yeah, fucking annoying to see so many people claim they've got HPPD..
I've said it before and I'll say it again, 99% of all people claiming to have HPPD do NOT have it.
Both from the same thread >
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/235230-The-Big-amp-Dandy-HPPD-Thread
I mean seriously, i'm sure they guy who posted here saying he dropped acid 20 times a day for 5 years straight gets to see some weird shit even when sober. I don't think theres any way you can get your brain used to seeing hallucinations all the time in everyday situations and not have it stick with your a while. But most people seem to be blowing it out, how much is this after-effect really happening and how much is it just in their minds due to anxiety?
We can never know.
You know, when i was a wee little lad and first started smoking weed i would be walking down the street alone at night and I would think any little noise that happened was someone just right behind me. Of course there was no one there. I never freaked out, I knew it was just a substance and me learning how to deal with it. It went away relatively fast. I've had periods in my life after that were i smoked ridiculous amounts and felt 100% in control of the trip, no anxiety or bad thoughts. It's pure bliss. Until it goes away : )
Seriously, a lot of this might just be people who take doses that are way too large for them way too often without proper set and setting and then can't handle the trip later on, developing anxiety afterwards that's making me them go through this. I could totally see someone who was naturally paranoid and not ready for weed having the experience ive had of thinking people were walking behind and freaking the fuck out, shouting to the bushes come out or im gonna get you, calling the police, admitting themselves to the hospital and stuff.
It's all about how you handle the trip. A lot of people say they did psychedelics and had this realizations about the universe being cyclical and never ending and ultimately meaningless and vague because of its infinity. Shit, I think that's beyond beautiful and it doesn't make me think stuff if meaningless. That realization doesn't cause any anxiety in me, it brings a smile to my face. Then again, I can relate that to a lot that i've read and thought about before. But like stillmind above said, the effects of psychedelics are highly idiosyncratic and unpredictable. A lot of people who might have other kinds of beliefs can go through that and just not accept it and make a huge deal out of it and let it affect them for the rest of their lives, getting depressed at what they feel is the pointlessness of it all. There are no guarantees. And it's not about one side being right or wrong. It's a lot more about me preferring to live a happy life than a sad one. If that's how it is, so be it, let's roll with it. Let's create our own meaning. Let's not lock ourselves in our rooms and cry about it till the day we die.
And i'm not trying to deny the existence of HPPD, just counter balance a little whats been posted here. I don't have any personal experience with this syndrome, but then again i'm the kind of person who thinks a healthy reaction to a psychedelic is not to want to touch the stuff again for a VERY LONG time until youve applied the self-examinations you had and change the negative stuff in your life that it helped you understand and deal with. I don't think they are purely recreational drugs. But then again, there's people who come out of the trip thinking hey I need to this every day for the rest of my life, that's a great idea. Go fucking figure. Instead of the substance making them realize how trippy and enjoyable everyday life can be without any extra chemicals added to it. Maybe they were already very different to begin with. Maybe they're getting a different kind of message from the stuff. Who knows. You should be respectful of the substance, but believing everything anyone who you know nothing about posts on the internet says doesn't sound sensible.
Edit > These posts are really relevant :
What some of you are calling symptoms of HPPD, I've had my entire life.
Closing your eyes and seeing bright colored geometric patterns floating around has been something I've enjoyed from a very young age... also the static vision isn't something new to me... brightly colored pixels will make up my entire vision and I can still see... I just feel like I'm watching it on a really old television and you can see each pixel... I also get the "floaters" (mainly in the sunlight.. but in the dim light sometimes, too...) they usually just sort of free-fall down until I look up again and then they'll shoot back up and I can watch them fall again.
After tripping and taking a warm shower, these "floaters" began to become illuminated and shoot around in rapid succession... like electrons orbiting the nucleus... and my vision was the nucleus... (I wasn't tripping at the time... I mean.. after I had started tripping)
I don't know if I consider this HPPD, but I can, at will, make things morph and what not like 2c-e/2c-i... like looking at the corner where two walls meet... I can make them come out at me... or watch my ceiling bubble and what not... but it's only when I try...
I still get slight tracers sometimes... but I think I may just imagine them because I think they'd be cool... who knows.
I've tripped ~20-30 times... never really had a "bad" trip... as I learned something from all of them.
oh yeah... and when I did 2c-i for a week... for about a month after, certain people would have an aura to them... but it was always the same people.. and they always had the same color attached to them... regardless of what they were wearing and what the background was...
I can relate to this. Its being a kid and messing around with your visions. It's simple and common stuff that I used to do all the time and i was a wee little lad and it doesn't have much to do with psychedelics, like the guy said. How many people running around claiming about HPPD might just be having something any kid can accomplish by pressing their eyes or focusing their visions and confusing it with permanent after-effects due to post trip anxiety? I mean, it wouldn't freak me out because i could do that stuff at age 5 and I always knew it was me playing around with my eyes and not brain damage.
i once heard that in the amazon, in order to be considered a *true* and *expert* shaman or spirit seer in the ayahuasca tradition, an initiate has to trip so hard and so many times that they become able to permanently see visions and spirits, and then this state is welcomed and admired by the community. Conclusion: the significance of hppd is largely a construct of individuals and societies' beliefs about what constitutes an acceptable life.
I personally think that hppd is overblown and that when it comes to the debilitating aspect of it - the anxiety that probably jacks people the most - the thing is, this is a personal reaction to something that you've done and are now experiencing. I would think people could meditate on being accepting of things they cannot change, and realizing no harm has really been done to them and get through life with constant CEVs or somesuch without totally freaking out. So you changed your brain, so what. The act of living and thinking changes your brain. Why be so anxious about it?? colors on the edges of your vision arent preventing you from living a full and successful and happy life. And we all know the truth is that doing psychedelics even once is probably going to permanently change your perception. (in some way- even if it's only the realization that that form of altered consciousness exists).
On the other hand, certain people maybe have problems with their vision, hearing, or physical perception that substantially impairs their ability to accomplish normal tasks. I wasnt talking about you, and yeah, anxiety here is probably justified and to be expected.