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I’m turning 30 in a couple months. For most my twenties, I was an avid skateboarder and was really into electronic music. Being around skateparks a lot would expose me to drugs obviously and is part of what got me into that sort of culture I’d say. I also went to a lot of raves, and produced my own music as well. Taking part in these activities caused me to base my identity a lot on drug use, since it was so commonplace and I was very avid about psychedelics for a while.

Nowadays these activities don’t interest me at all. My brain is completely done from many psychotic episodes and I can’t take any substances now without big consequences. I barely make music anymore, and my back is also toast from several skate accidents. I now need to come up with some new hobbies that don’t involve drugs and that don’t destroy my body. Hiking and surfing are my favorite currently.

Anyway, my point is I think part of me misses this old lifestyle I was exposed to while pursuing these hobbies but now I really need to grow up and find something else to do. I’ve been unemployed for two years collecting social security disability.

What did you start doing when you outgrew what you enjoyed when you were younger?
 
I agree with you, it can put you in a weird position. I still use drugs but I have other hobbies because I don't really associate with other opiate users in real life. My friends are mostly pot smokers so not too many people who are still complete degenerates, though I love my degen friends too.

When I lived in a more rural area I was able to hike and 4x4 and fly my drone more close by which I really enjoyed. Now that I live in a city it's more urban exploring and museums. I enjoy coin collecting and have a couple other random collections. I've also gotten back into building Legos which I'd given up for almost 20 years. I also enjoy reading but also want to do more cause I've been too high to feel like it much lately. I don't play many video games but I know lots of people do.

It can take time after ignoring what makes you happy outside drugs for so long, but you'll figure out what you gravitate towards and find rewarding over time. It may take trying different options, it did for me, but those aren't bad times etiher.
 
washingtonbound said:
I’m turning 30 in a couple months. For most my twenties, I was an avid skateboarder and was really into electronic music. Being around skateparks a lot would expose me to drugs obviously and is part of what got me into that sort of culture I’d say. I also went to a lot of raves, and produced my own music as well. Taking part in these activities caused me to base my identity a lot on drug use, since it was so commonplace and I was very avid about psychedelics for a while.

Nowadays these activities don’t interest me at all. My brain is completely done from many psychotic episodes and I can’t take any substances now without big consequences. I barely make music anymore, and my back is also toast from several skate accidents. I now need to come up with some new hobbies that don’t involve drugs and that don’t destroy my body. Hiking and surfing are my favorite currently.

Anyway, my point is I think part of me misses this old lifestyle I was exposed to while pursuing these hobbies but now I really need to grow up and find something else to do. I’ve been unemployed for two years collecting social security disability.

What did you start doing when you outgrew what you enjoyed when you were younger?
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Same with the back and skateboarding and party drugs.

I honestly say that 15 years later I don’t miss it anymore. I haven’t tripped in 13 years and even then it had progressed to straight drug abuse (tripping alone and mixing with heroin etc) …last time I tripped with friends at a rave was almost 20 years ago. A few years ago I tried to go to a rave on weed and it was all so stupid. Thank god I wasn’t tripping it would’ve been a bad trip. I still listen to some of that music but I get way higher off it alone in bed sober than at a loud chaotic rave.

Transitioned to outdoor pursuits like hunting fishing and nature. Playing music.

I’m now in my 40s and also recently those pursuits have sunddleny lost their lustre and I’m feeling a bit lost. I’m trying to focus on my relationships and friendships and being a better friend and husband now. Trying not to make it about me and my desires for dopamine thrills. It never ends
 
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I think I still enjoy all the things I've always enjoyed but maybe just do them less. In my teens and early 20 I was super into video games and anime they were my main hobbies and a huge chunk of my free time went into them. Music was also a huge thing for me and most of my monthly paycheck would go between the 3.

And booze...

I still like all those things but I allow them a fraction of the bandwidth (and finances) I would have when I was younger in because I have different priorities and a lot less free time.

I've also picked up new interests over the the years so I have more things I want to divide my increasingly limited free time amongst.
 
Shinji Ikari said:
I think I still enjoy all the things I've always enjoyed but maybe just do them less. In my teens and early 20 I was super into video games and anime they were my main hobbies and a huge chunk of my free time went into them. Music was also a huge thing for me and most of my monthly paycheck would go between the 3.

And booze...

I still like all those things but I allow them a fraction of the bandwidth (and finances) I would have when I was younger in because I have different priorities and a lot less free time.

I've also picked up new interests over the the years so I have more things I want to divide my increasingly limited free time amongst.
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Are you under the age of 28?
 
Shinji Ikari said:
I think I still enjoy all the things I've always enjoyed but maybe just do them less. In my teens and early 20 I was super into video games and anime they were my main hobbies and a huge chunk of my free time went into them. Music was also a huge thing for me and most of my monthly paycheck would go between the 3.

And booze...

I still like all those things but I allow them a fraction of the bandwidth (and finances) I would have when I was younger in because I have different priorities and a lot less free time.

I've also picked up new interests over the the years so I have more things I want to divide my increasingly limited free time amongst.
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I was similar. These days I find it hard to watch anime, or play video games, and I don't even like alcohol now. Part of it is feeling like I don't have the time and being more focused on what I want to accomplish
 
Do u still have the desire to produce? Creating music does not require the use of drugs, you might find that you enjoy it even more without them if you give it a chance and work on it. I’ve always felt that making music was the thing that got me the highest when I’ve stopped using drugs in the past.
 
Im 43 and still like drugs but alcohol not so much. Hangovers really fuck me now. Im also not addicted to anything now. I still take opiates, benzos and zopiclone but im not addicted to them now. I also take shrooms and ket cause they dont fuck me up the next day either
 
washingtonbound said:
I’m turning 30 in a couple months. For most my twenties, I was an avid skateboarder and was really into electronic music. Being around skateparks a lot would expose me to drugs obviously and is part of what got me into that sort of culture I’d say. I also went to a lot of raves, and produced my own music as well. Taking part in these activities caused me to base my identity a lot on drug use, since it was so commonplace and I was very avid about psychedelics for a while.

Nowadays these activities don’t interest me at all. My brain is completely done from many psychotic episodes and I can’t take any substances now without big consequences. I barely make music anymore, and my back is also toast from several skate accidents. I now need to come up with some new hobbies that don’t involve drugs and that don’t destroy my body. Hiking and surfing are my favorite currently.

Anyway, my point is I think part of me misses this old lifestyle I was exposed to while pursuing these hobbies but now I really need to grow up and find something else to do. I’ve been unemployed for two years collecting social security disability.

What did you start doing when you outgrew what you enjoyed when you were younger?
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Have you considered target shooting?
Archery or shooting. 22Lr ammo is cheap and so are the 22Lr pistols and a 9mm with a a decent barrel length, 4 inches or more. 9mm ammo is not that expensive. Also, although I never have skeet shooting. A decent over and under double barrel 12 gauge shotgun with a 28 or 30 inch barrel or a semi auto with similar barrel length?
 
washingtonbound said:
I’m turning 30 in a couple months. For most my twenties, I was an avid skateboarder and was really into electronic music. Being around skateparks a lot would expose me to drugs obviously and is part of what got me into that sort of culture I’d say. I also went to a lot of raves, and produced my own music as well. Taking part in these activities caused me to base my identity a lot on drug use, since it was so commonplace and I was very avid about psychedelics for a while.

Nowadays these activities don’t interest me at all. My brain is completely done from many psychotic episodes and I can’t take any substances now without big consequences. I barely make music anymore, and my back is also toast from several skate accidents. I now need to come up with some new hobbies that don’t involve drugs and that don’t destroy my body. Hiking and surfing are my favorite currently.

Anyway, my point is I think part of me misses this old lifestyle I was exposed to while pursuing these hobbies but now I really need to grow up and find something else to do. I’ve been unemployed for two years collecting social security disability.

What did you start doing when you outgrew what you enjoyed when you were younger?
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It's normal to start experiencing limits when you hit your 30s. The body just can't take hits as easily anymore.

I grew out of festival culture, West Coast left-wing culture, and honestly the majority of people in general. It might just be the city I live in, I don't know, but people are so boring or stupid that I prefer to just stick to the social network I've already built over the years. There's just been so much medical and personal chaos in the past 10 years that my life has become very simple and solitary. I still have a good social network but I'm not immersive with it anymore and I have become a lot more stoic.

A lot of the stuff I used to be interested in became same shit different pile after a while. Idle fascinations that led nowhere.
 
Foreigner said:
It's normal to start experiencing limits when you hit your 30s. The body just can't take hits as easily anymore.

I grew out of festival culture, West Coast left-wing culture, and honestly the majority of people in general. It might just be the city I live in, I don't know, but people are so boring or stupid that I prefer to just stick to the social network I've already built over the years. There's just been so much medical and personal chaos in the past 10 years that my life has become very simple and solitary. I still have a good social network but I'm not immersive with it anymore and I have become a lot more stoic.

A lot of the stuff I used to be interested in became same shit different pile after a while. Idle fascinations that led nowhere.
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Yea I would say my experience is definitely normal, I’m just struggling to find other ways to fill my time because I’m not even employed right now. I 100% get what you mean about the west coast left wing crap, as I went to college in Seattle. That’s the other thing, I’m not into any kind of movements now, politically or otherwise. I don’t really have friends either. 30 is still young but I don’t particularly feel that young in the since that I’m not interested in being around people and “in the action.” I think my post could be summarized as just needing to find ways to fill my time.
 
washingtonbound said:
Yea I would say my experience is definitely normal, I’m just struggling to find other ways to fill my time because I’m not even employed right now. I 100% get what you mean about the west coast left wing crap, as I went to college in Seattle. That’s the other thing, I’m not into any kind of movements now, politically or otherwise. I don’t really have friends either. 30 is still young but I don’t particularly feel that young in the since that I’m not interested in being around people and “in the action.” I think my post could be summarized as just needing to find ways to fill my time.
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I spend my time studying (academia), bodybuilding (the gym), making money, and expanding my knowledge. Those are always my mainstays. In the warm seasons I'm outdoors every opportunity I can be, exploring nature. Nature makes infinitely more sense to me than human society and I try to get as far away from people as possible.

Traveling is also interesting, when possible. I like exploring historical places and ancient ruins and other kinds of nature that is different from where I come from. I used to be into culture but because humans are basically the same everywhere it doesn't really interest me as much anymore. I'm interested in high-level individuals, which are randomized among the population. The rest I could care less about.

This world is full of fascination and awe. Yeah, that's the word... awe. I try to do things in my life that evoke awe while making myself strong enough (physically, mentally, financially) to explore awe.

The transcendent is pretty much all that matters to me anymore.

I guess on a practical level, you can use your free time to do some continuing education. Beefing up your resume is a means to an end. You can't do anything in this world without money. For some that's okay. I guess it depends what you want and what the goal is.
 
Creative pursuits like drawing and painting were probably one of the first things I stopped doing as I got more into drinking and drugs.

I also think I might have outgrown videogames. I bought a ps5 two years ago and in that time I've spent probably 12 hours tops playing videogames. I'm Still playing the dead space remake and I just can not get into it. I'm hoping when GTA 6 finally comes out or if a new elder scrolls game comes out I might start gaming out on the regular again til then I mostly just use it for YouTube lol.

Cycling as a hobby is something I got really into when I stopped with other pastimes though. Nothing beats taking some Eddys biking around on some trails and crushing a king can or 2 by the river.
 
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when u outgrew what u enjoyed like young may be is time for family.....to grow kids,educate them...makes them human beings...trying all the best not to copy ur life as to drugs,promisquity...etc..my child is my greatest achievement and i am proud of her in every way...that's what's left behind u......or be the best of best in ur work or live for the others-the poor,the sick...the elders,'cause helping others u help urself-well here i am zero
 
<3<3 Your job is not to judge. Your job is not to figure out if someone deserves something.
Your job is to lift the fallen, to restore the broken, and to heal the hurting. <3<3


--- just some food
 
Coffeeshroom said:
@Shinji Ikari Princess Mononoke 😁🥰 .. and the rest was history...
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It was My Neighbor Totoro for me. It came on the TV one morning when I was 17 and although the cynical teenager in me sneered as the opening credits played by the end I was utterly enchanted. I still love that film and watch it often as do the rest of my family and everyone else I've introduced it to.
 
Nas47 said:
when u outgrew what u enjoyed like young may be is time for family.....to grow kids,educate them...makes them human beings...trying all the best not to copy ur life as to drugs,promisquity...etc..my child is my greatest achievement and i am proud of her in every way...that's what's left behind u......or be the best of best in ur work or live for the others-the poor,the sick...the elders,'cause helping others u help urself-well here i am zero
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Yanking a nonexistent being into this meat grinder to fix some aspect of your life, your boredom, your marriage, your emptiness….this is probably some of the worst life advice I’ve ever heard of


We have zero right to yank and being into this world without their consent where they are at risk of untold suffering, disease and decays that is inevitable. Every birth is a death. Birth is guaranteed suffering and death. Absence of birth and existence cannot be missed out on by a nonexistent being; therefore the only impetus for procreation is selfishness in the part of the parents to fill a void by thrusting another life into this meat grinder with no consent.

Fill your voids in other ways, find meaning within yourselves or ppl that already exist. There is absolutely no loss in not creating a new life for that nonexistent being; the only loss is a selfish one.



If you want to help children and foster others, adopt. The world is full.

This mindless shitting out of endless kids into a decaying world in an attempt to find meaning is tragic and selfish.
 
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