Oddly enough I've been wondering the same thing for the last day or two (and was hoping to have received a reply from my post above of 7 August 2020).
Just checked that other forum though i.e. he was last seen there at 02h06 (GMT+2) this morning. His package arrived, so far as I can tell, a few days ago though. I cannot PM him there or anything like that as I only have 1 post there (and I can only assume the same rules apply over there i.e. a certain minimum number of posts are required before you can contact members directly).
Anyway and judging by his latest posts: he's still on track and resolute. Hopefully we'll hear from him here sometime before the time comes.
Tell you one or two things though:
That forum can do your head in if you're not prepared for it. And it makes things very very real. You know: sometimes people casually mention suicide and most people I know have considered it at some point in their lives but it's normally only as passing thought and their lives move on. But once you're really there at that point i.e. decided, done the necessary planning and research, and even set the date: it's a whole new reality. And for somebody that's actually reached that point: the strangest thing happens. It is from that moment onward always a real and concrete option (not some passing thought anymore). In other words: somebody that's not reached that point may be presented with a problem or encounter real issues and to them they have may have let's say "Option 1", "Option 2", or "Option 3" to resolve. But once somebody has reached that point: "Option 4" (being suicide) is ALWAYS an option just as real as the other three in my example. And there's no returning from that. It's quite a strange and intriguing phenomenon which I've never seen discussed anywhere.
But yeh: it's hard going there. Reading posts of members that have gotten to that final point and then following them through the entire process until they're gone. Even for somebody who has reached that point: it's still surreal reading every single time. And some people have been put through the ringer so bad in their lives or have ended up in bad situations from where there is no return. And living with mental health issues, depression, sorrow, regret, loss etc. can be and is every bit as painful as chronic and debilitating pain or excruciating withdrawal symptoms the difference being that excruciating withdrawal symptoms (as an example) will eventually pass as I'm sure most around here will know. Sometimes, mostly, the other issues I've mentioned will never pass. But as I've said: only somebody who has been there or is there will get it. Mostly the attitude of those that don't get it is something along the lines of "don't be ridiculous, pull yourself toward yourself, things will get better, think of what it would do to those that love you" (and so on and so forth). Life doesn't work that way. There's absolutely no rule in any book of rules that says that a torrid life or dismal quality of life WILL eventually get better. For some it's a simple reality that it is what it is and the only choice to to be made is whether to live in agony (be it mental or physical and sometimes even both) until you die of natural causes (which in some cases could be decades) or just draw the line in the sand and say "that's it". Respect.
By the way (and believe it or not this is also harm reduction intended): there's another site called lostallhope dot com. I mention this because it's one of those topics that would surprise many if delved deeper into and this site is not a forum but contains a LOT of information including statistical information. Most people assume, for example, that using a firearm is a guaranteed method. You'd be surprised at the statistics of failed attempts by firearm and the resulting and permanent damage done and the individual then has no option but to live with it until they die of natural causes. On the other site mentioned: Fentanyl has come up more than once. You will not believe the misinformation re: Fentanyl on that site. It's a conundrum I live with on a daily basis to be honest i.e. help and impart knowledge (thus guaranteeing success) or not. It's a line I've still not as yet defined for myself i.e. the line between being compassionate or aiding and abetting.
Oh and
@DeadManWalkin':
Nice of you to also check up on the chap. See. Told you the other day another thread: you're not SUCH a cunt! Lol!
