Greetings Bluelight community, I've been browsing your forums for years now and finally decided to join the conversation. I'm a halfway recovering heroin addict, sporting an eating disorder to boot. I went to rehab this summer to treat both, but promptly relapsed as soon I was released to my home in NJ. I proceeded to loss almost everything I own and was kicked out of my apartment. I moved in with my father and step mom in Utah a little over a month ago, where I've been experiencing a sort of forced sobriety. My mind, however, is still very much in relapse mode. I've found, and abused, a couple of things since I've been here: a few percs, methocarbamol, a handful of other prescription drugs I brought with me. I've tried to cop a couple times, so far, unsuccessfully. I'm still trying to score dope and have become remarkably resourceful, In the meantime, I've turned to nootropics (phenylpiracetam) and other OTC drugs (ephedrine) in an attempt to quiet my addiction-addled mind. Last night, I placed another nootropics order, this time for adrafinil, phenibut and tianeptine. With the exception of the first nootropic, I really have no business taking this with my addiction history... which is exactly why I want them. Anyway, it's good to be here and I look forward to being part of the conversation. BTW, if you're interested, I've chronicled (part of) my journey at: https://anorexicjunkie.com/
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