Gotta say somethin here

Since I plan on looking back on these entries after getting well I feel I gotta say somethin about the end of 'M' and me...

I got a text from her monday morning that began with 'I'm done. I'm out.' The rest just said something along the lines of 'please don't contact me from this point forward so that I can move on from this'

I thought that we could be friends in the future regardless of romantic involvement. She has been a good friend so far but my guess is that she went to work and told her friend about my buddy's od at my place on friday. She listens to this person's advice without regard to her own feelings or thoughts. This friend must have advised her to get the fuck away.

Doesn't matter, really. Even if she called and changed her mind I am done with it. The amount of times she has played 'flip flop' with her decisions about us are many and its gotten stale.

She wasn't 'the one'.

No relationships for me for a while. When I do get involved again I'll be entering the relationship with a clear, clean head.

There will be so many changes and new experiences come friday. It'll be interesting to see what life has planned for me.

 

You know, as much as I was hoping things would work out fo ryou in this relationship (b/c you know me, Im a romantic)
It is probably for the best.
Like you said, the next relationship you enter into will be with a clean, clear head.
You should take this time to focus solely on yourself.
Your next relationship with be healthier for it.
I can't say enough how happy I am that you are getting help
I also can't wait to hear storied of your sobreity and good mental place

 

I'm excited as well. I get to be selfish in a positive way and take care of me. Its a shame about her but oh well. There will be others (hopefully not too many, I'm a romantic as well).

I'm putting on a 'tough guy' face because it does hurt but its for the better. I KNOW I'm a good guy, when I get clean that guy will be in full force and I'm sure there's a special girl that is just right for me and I'm just right for her.