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Gotta love the anticipation for getting HIGH

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Like right now im on a week n then some waiting to get some oxy.

I still have a couple more days to go before dude reups and unfortunately i dont have a steady income so i cant even buy alcohol or reefer as im saving my money to get as many pills as possible ha.

So i have been COMPLETLEY sober for about a week and a half but i just keep thinking about how in a couple more days i will be taking a fat line to the dome and just be completely fuckeddd finally ending my soberness and just waking up that morning will put a big smile on my face knowing i will score.

I think all of this waiting and being sober greatlyy adds to the getting high experience.

So who else loves the anticipation?
 
I for one hate the anticipation lol... It's such an anxiety for me waiting to find out if going to or not lol...I do like the anticipation of knowing I'm getting something soon,
Like after I get off work this evening :) :) :)

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Oh lord I do not like waiting! I get so goddamn anxious and keep asking myself "when the fuck is he getting here, I want to get high!" and then a few minutes later, "where is he? What if he never comes, he's not coming, I know it, FUCK!" Then I got to call again and ask if he's still coming. More anxiety.
 
K'd-OUT-in-AZ said:
Oh lord I do not like waiting! I get so goddamn anxious and keep asking myself "when the fuck is he getting here, I want to get high!" and then a few minutes later, "where is he? What if he never comes, he's not coming, I know it, FUCK!" Then I got to call again and ask if he's still coming. More anxiety.
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Hahah exactly how I am, I was about to type up literally the exact same words to the T haha
 
K'd-OUT-in-AZ said:
Oh lord I do not like waiting! I get so goddamn anxious and keep asking myself "when the fuck is he getting here, I want to get high!" and then a few minutes later, "where is he? What if he never comes, he's not coming, I know it, FUCK!" Then I got to call again and ask if he's still coming. More anxiety.
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Lmfao exactly how I feel I just didn't know how to express it as well as you lmfao
 
to all who posted but when you get it rnt u so much more thankful and isnt it such a bigger relief once your finally where you wanna be?

Think about if you just had drugs that you could use any time you felt the need i think it would take away from some of the experience ya know? kinda taking it for granted
 
The anticipitation for drugs & sex is thrilling. Most of the time, the anticipitation is grander than the actual act of using drugs or having sex.
 
The Core of Addiction is the Anticipation-Reward cycle.

In "Why Zebra's dont get Ulcer's" (book I read for a class).
The largest most reinforcing amount of dopamine is released in anticipation. It's the buying of the drugs, the cooking (for those who inject).


Im sure most people who have been sick and as soon as they score, they feel almost normal. It's an incredible amount of natural dopamine release.
 
oatmeal cookie said:
I for one hate the anticipation lol... It's such an anxiety for me waiting to find out if going to or not lol...I do like the anticipation of knowing I'm getting something soon,
Like after I get off work this evening :) :) :)

-oc
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To Further my point.....I know that anxiety all to well. And when they do finally show up, its time to change your undies :). The point is that your not doing the drug, but your body releases enough for that relief. You then do the drugs and double wham...your making paslov's dogs jealous. Thats why drugs are so FCKING reinforcing. Then of course opiates have the physical wd syndrome which also add a seperate component. But as we all know that kicking in all honesty is the easy part. Continued non-use is the Ninja Warrior obstacle course of the mind.
 
As ch1nawhite says drug seeking and dosing are part of the lifestyle.

In fact, the whole premise of methadone and suboxone replacement therapies rest on the idea of retraining the drug user away from the drug-seeking lifestyle/thrill of dosing.
 
midway thru my heroin addiction, i realized after the hunt, and just holding the H cap in my hand, i would feel the dope sensation flow thru my shoulders, and down my back. it was very strange, and nobody believed me that i got a buzz just holding the heroin in my hand. and it felt as good getting all the supplies, meltin down the dope in water and tying off my arm, as it did doing the shot.. i always thought it was kinda funny tho that i caught a placebo type buzz off holding the dope in my hand. my rehab said it was that my mind knew what was about to come, and its way basically saying BRING IT ON!
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but all the people i know, that are prescribed pills, will sell their pills the second they get them, just to go out and basically buy them back. they will sell their perks or w/e, then once they get money from that, they leave and go out to buy more perks. its like wtf, just keep what u get from ur doc, and do em... lol never really made sense. if i was px oxys, i wouldnt sell em to buy em back, id keep them bitchs
 
IHateOpiophobes said:
In "Why Zebra's dont get Ulcer's" (book I read for a class).
The largest most reinforcing amount of dopamine is released in anticipation. It's the buying of the drugs, the cooking (for those who inject).


Im sure most people who have been sick and as soon as they score, they feel almost normal. It's an incredible amount of natural dopamine release.
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very interesting comment and although im currrently not withdrawing or sick i definately get that dopamine release and feel better than normal when i receive the goodies

All this talking about scoring makes me even more excited for tommorrow! god that whole day is just going to be a fantastic blurr haha
 
mmmmm molly... i need to find someone here thats around fort myers fla, i just moved here not too long ago.
 
oh god i was just talking about this on another post. yesterday was such an angst ridden day. i had to wait to travel to manhattan (from Jersey) to pick up some money all the while on the verge of shitting bricks excited to meet up with my guy in brooklyn to pick up my goods. once i get the money im waiting for the call to say its cool to make moves over bridge. each time i call him he's like "in a lil bit" "in a two hours" "delay delay delay. i wait like 5 hours altogether. long story short i got my money but didnt get my drugs. that train ride home back to nj was such a fucking let down. today i woke up with new found hope. ive still got my money so each passing hour is another chance. I WILL GET HIGH DAMMIT!
 
^ haha exactly how im feeling except ive been waiting dayss i really think i will jizz in my pants once those pretty pills are finally in my hand and ill prolly OD (no i wont) because im so excited to get completely faded

And yea i need to find some fucking molly as well never had the pleasure of experiencing its greatness i can only imagine though
 
I'm sorry but I'm still saying that I hate the anticipation. If I'm sick from withdrawals I can't wait to score but I don't feel good waiting. I get real nervous because I always start to think what if he doesn't show and the longer I wait after that thought the worse it becomes. That question will always be in the back of my head....always. Dope dealers are the absolute worse.

If I already have the drug and at work or something I still feel anxious waiting and just want to get off work the entire time. Anticipation is a bad thing for me when it comes to drugs.

If I'm sitting in front of a pile of cocaine then I do feel good knowing I'm about to get high in a few minutes. I like cutting up lines, I like crushing pills finely, I love cooking liquid into powder and powder into liquid. I like the preparation.
 
i always have a large stash of various drugs so i know i'm good and i don't have to wait for dealers.

and i always aquire more of a drug i'm starting to run low on before i run out so i never have to deal with shady dealer's bullshit too much(plus i have a few dealers i can trust).
 
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