Got drunk and became psychotic

[ThePurpleWiggle]

I could tell you the whole story if anyone's interested to hear it but the short of it is that I went crazy. Attacked a friend of mine, sounded confused and hateful of everyone and everything including myself. Ran off on my own, called a friend who came to look for me. He, the friend I attacked and the security guards deemed me to be out of control to the point that my good friend decided the police should be called. I woke up in hospital after being sedated with no memory and rather damaged relations with two of my friends. The nurses told me that a security guard I assaulted has decided to press charges, but it's been a few days and I've heard nothing of that yet.

One of my closest friends (the partner of the friend I attacked) doesn't want me in her life until I deal with the issues in my psyche which led to this and previous (though nowhere near as extreme) crazy times I've had drinking. The one I attacked hasn't returned my calls.

This just isn't on. I don't know how to deal with the underlying issues though.

From this I determine that I should stop drinking. I should seek professional psychotherapy. Maybe go on a meditation retreat again. Turning point course maybe, heard that's good. Other than that I don't know how to "fix" myself, my experience with therapists has never yielded much benefit. My Dad says I should stop smoking weed and substance use until I work myself out, which I'm open to doing but I don't really want to. About those possible charges too, I already contacted the shopping centre with an apologetic email to security, but I think the guard who wants to press charges might actually be from the hospital, should I call the hospital and ask about it or just wait it out?

Just asking for any advice you guys might have to give, in regards to anything I've just written?

 

[Stuck_x]

Im always pyscho when i drink. Varying degrees. The only solution that i have found is not dribking. Sorry if you think im being out of line but have you seen a psychiatrist? I have only recently, but i found out i have bipolar. And when i drink it throws me into a manic state - i always just thought i was a bit of a dick. Maybe there's something underlying that you're unaware of?

 

[Moreaux]

It sounds like you were in a blackout. Back when I used to drink blacks would result in either me being horribly violent, verbally abusive (I told me Mom who was in her late sixties at the time to fuck off, she was the root of all my problems, etc and tried to hit her), or I would get suicidal (I would repeatedly slice my arm with a pairing knife, down to the bone). As my drinking career went on, black outs were happening every time I drink. It didn't matter if I had a good day or a bad, I was simply vicious in blackout mode. I think your best bet is too stop drinking and like you said, get therapy. You need to identify the root cause of your unhappiness whatever that is. For me, I had zero self confidence even though my facade was that of a pretentious condescending bitch. Once I identified the root cause I was able to begin to resolve it, and have been sober ever since. Good luck to you! Be careful drinking, you could end up in the hospital, jail, or dead if you behave this way when drunk.

 

[bobby1978]

Ethanol is a shit drug, and I say that as someone who drank for the Canadian Olympic team for a decade and a half.

Quit it, would be my advice. There's just so much more fun (and less damaging) stuff to do.

I wouldn't really expect a "fix", doesn't work that way. Just find more interesting and productive things to do, and over time you will see it will get better. You seem to have some interesting ideas, as to the meditation and all that. There's all kinds of activities to do and less harmful substances to try (if you're so inclined)

Sorry I don't have any help specifically on the legal issue, or some more clear answer, but I just wanted to chime in and say one thing definitely is that you should quit drinking. I'm 37 years old and even my own story aside, I've just never heard of this story turning out well if the person doesn't stop.

You could always ask (the hospital) about the incident, I suppose. I mean it couldn't hurt. It's not like they don't have the info to press charges anyway, if they did indeed want to. Might bring you some piece of mind.