goodbye

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

I am trying not to think about it.
And that fact that you are gone,
hasn't quite sunk in yet.
I'm trying not to allow it.

You got me.
I was convinced.
You were the one.
It just so happens to be,
the wrong time, and
maybe the wrong place.

I knew today when you said
you were going home
to try to patch things up,
that you were never going to return.
And the only way, maybe, just maybe
I think you'd would,
is if she really kicked you out.

And this whole time,
I never wanted to make it
this hard, honestly.
I never intended for you
to fall in love with me.
And I didn't think it was
possible for me to feel
so goddamn good inside.
It makes me cry.
I'll admit it.

After the first two shows,
I knew I had you convinced
to go to Boston.
I was trying to prolong
saying goodbye.
And you did, buy telling me
that you were putting it
all on the line for me
to finish the tour with me.
And now all were are,
is two to(u)re kids
who fell in love
and had to set travel
in opposite directions.

I try to tell myself
that our paths will cross
again, I know they will.
But I don't want to be
without you.
And that's really hard
for me to say.
But I understand that
it must be really hard
for you to be in love with me.
And someone else.

 

[e5th3r]

that was awsome. very sad but very good

 

[cherub]

Outstanding and very raw emotions

 

[harraser]

i was in a similar position recently, falling for someone who loves me, but already has someone else. i got two pieces of somewhat similar advice from two of my best friends, given partly in jest but the sentiment is serious enough. the first said: "yeah lifes a big bucket of shit. deal with it." and the second said "suck it up bitch." and thats about all you can do hey....

i really like your writing love. i hope things are looking up for you *hugs*

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

Harraser,
Thank you for all of your kind words. They mean alot to me.

The initial goodbye was really, really tough.
He lives 12 hours away from me and I really grew attached in the six weeks we spent together. But he had to go home to his girlfriend.

Sitting on my porch with prolonged silence and "this sucks" attitudes made me almost loose my mind so when I said I think he should be on his way because he had a long drive, I ended it with...

In the good words of Joe Dirt, You gotta keep on keepin' on.