Hi, Im new to this board....actually, as someone with an addictive personality and addiction issues, who also spends UBER amounts of time researching, I always seem to end up reading BL threads. I've conquered my addictions several times on my own in the past, but always seem to end up back on something. In the past year, it's become legal highs....anyways, sorry if this isn't making much sense--I'm basically in a w/d right now (due to lack of funds--which is GOOD because I WANT to be off everything and just be normal again--and seems lack of funds is one way to force me to stop everything).
I finally realize, after having been through w/d's tens of times, that this is not something I can always fight on my own. Unfortunately, I do not have the money for professional help nor the friends who would understand (as most of my friends have never abused anything in their lives). The few friends who would understand simply want to get high--and that's not what I'm looking for. I've seen ppl posting on this forum who are going through w/d's and seem to receive a lot of support from other posters. It finally hit me one day, "you know, any kind of support from understanding people is better than no support at all." So here I am. I'm not asking for a pity party, I KNOW all too well how I got here and take full responsibility. I just need to be reminded by others when Im at my worst that it WILL pass and not to succumb to the demons, so to speak.
Anyway, I think I'll stop here. My anxiety is so bad that I've edited/deleted/re-typed this entire intro over 30 minutes and and still afraid to post, lol.
Looking forward to making great, mutually-supportive connections!!
I finally realize, after having been through w/d's tens of times, that this is not something I can always fight on my own. Unfortunately, I do not have the money for professional help nor the friends who would understand (as most of my friends have never abused anything in their lives). The few friends who would understand simply want to get high--and that's not what I'm looking for. I've seen ppl posting on this forum who are going through w/d's and seem to receive a lot of support from other posters. It finally hit me one day, "you know, any kind of support from understanding people is better than no support at all." So here I am. I'm not asking for a pity party, I KNOW all too well how I got here and take full responsibility. I just need to be reminded by others when Im at my worst that it WILL pass and not to succumb to the demons, so to speak.
Anyway, I think I'll stop here. My anxiety is so bad that I've edited/deleted/re-typed this entire intro over 30 minutes and and still afraid to post, lol.
Looking forward to making great, mutually-supportive connections!!
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