chefboyrg210
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Hello everyone I'm 28 and live in San Antonio. I consider myself a family man and I'm a chef for a living.
I've been addicted to opiates for over 10 years. It started out with pills and progressed through the years and it ended as of recently with iving heroin. I've tried several times to get clean. So I guess you could say I'm a chronic relapser. Been to 4 rehabs and prison twice. Been in and out of AA for 5 years. About 75 days ago I overdosed and went to a crisis center. Stayed there for 13 days. I was diagnosed bipolar and given some meds for that and also some suboxone for my heroin addiction. It helped a lot. I left there and went to another treatment. When I finished I was given a month script of suboxone. I never used on it not once. I figured it would be easy getting the next script. But it was not. Almost all the clinics were full and doctors were really expensive. I barley make enough money for my family and myself to get by. Anyways I ran out of Subs and started to withdrawl and I can't believe it but I had a slip up. Used a small amount of brown. I was freaking out. I just got my family back. Things are turning around for me. And here I am withdrawling and obsessing over getting more heroin. I have to get into a clinic or something bad was going to happen. (Yeah whatever say what you want im weak minded. I believe my problem to be a disease. And i cant afford a doctor. I used heroin everyday in the past by selling it as well. Im trying to live right so i dont have money for doc or subs)So I found one and made an appointment to go in. I thought I was on to something.
The clinic I went to turned out to be a waste of time. I ended up asking my uncle for help and he paid the 250 for the doctor visit so that I can get a script of suboxone. He also paid for my first prescription of sub. My next script will be paid for by The Suboxone assistance program. Thank God I was granted there assistance. Subs are expensive. My doc visit next month will be 150. My script is paid for by that program. So that makes my monthly expense for suboxone 150 dollars. I plan on Donating plasma twice a week which brings 280 a month. I'll use that money to pay for my doc visit. Just so I don't have to use any of the income I make from my job. My income from work is for my family. And I don't make enough money to support us like I'd like to and would feel bad if I had t use some of that income for my personal addiction problem. In the past all I did was spend all our money on crap and I don't want to do that anymore.
So I've been taking 8mg of sub a day. 4mg in morning and 4 mg mid afternoon. It seems to have been working just fine. I haven't used anything so I guess it is working. I'm sure my morning devotion and readings, prayer, working hard, spending time with family, making my gf happy, talking to my sponsor and going to meeting also has a big part in my sobriety.
I think I'm going to stay on suns for at least 2 years. I want to completely eliminate from my daily activities dealing with drugs or drug dealers and so forth. So that when it's time for me to come of Subs I won't have people I know or can call to get the "hook up". And im hoping my mind state will be different. So that when I get sick I won't think of that old habit of getting something to make me feel better.
Anyways that's all for now. Tell me what yall think. Am I on the right path? What changes and what do I need to look out for.
I've been addicted to opiates for over 10 years. It started out with pills and progressed through the years and it ended as of recently with iving heroin. I've tried several times to get clean. So I guess you could say I'm a chronic relapser. Been to 4 rehabs and prison twice. Been in and out of AA for 5 years. About 75 days ago I overdosed and went to a crisis center. Stayed there for 13 days. I was diagnosed bipolar and given some meds for that and also some suboxone for my heroin addiction. It helped a lot. I left there and went to another treatment. When I finished I was given a month script of suboxone. I never used on it not once. I figured it would be easy getting the next script. But it was not. Almost all the clinics were full and doctors were really expensive. I barley make enough money for my family and myself to get by. Anyways I ran out of Subs and started to withdrawl and I can't believe it but I had a slip up. Used a small amount of brown. I was freaking out. I just got my family back. Things are turning around for me. And here I am withdrawling and obsessing over getting more heroin. I have to get into a clinic or something bad was going to happen. (Yeah whatever say what you want im weak minded. I believe my problem to be a disease. And i cant afford a doctor. I used heroin everyday in the past by selling it as well. Im trying to live right so i dont have money for doc or subs)So I found one and made an appointment to go in. I thought I was on to something.
The clinic I went to turned out to be a waste of time. I ended up asking my uncle for help and he paid the 250 for the doctor visit so that I can get a script of suboxone. He also paid for my first prescription of sub. My next script will be paid for by The Suboxone assistance program. Thank God I was granted there assistance. Subs are expensive. My doc visit next month will be 150. My script is paid for by that program. So that makes my monthly expense for suboxone 150 dollars. I plan on Donating plasma twice a week which brings 280 a month. I'll use that money to pay for my doc visit. Just so I don't have to use any of the income I make from my job. My income from work is for my family. And I don't make enough money to support us like I'd like to and would feel bad if I had t use some of that income for my personal addiction problem. In the past all I did was spend all our money on crap and I don't want to do that anymore.
So I've been taking 8mg of sub a day. 4mg in morning and 4 mg mid afternoon. It seems to have been working just fine. I haven't used anything so I guess it is working. I'm sure my morning devotion and readings, prayer, working hard, spending time with family, making my gf happy, talking to my sponsor and going to meeting also has a big part in my sobriety.
I think I'm going to stay on suns for at least 2 years. I want to completely eliminate from my daily activities dealing with drugs or drug dealers and so forth. So that when it's time for me to come of Subs I won't have people I know or can call to get the "hook up". And im hoping my mind state will be different. So that when I get sick I won't think of that old habit of getting something to make me feel better.
Anyways that's all for now. Tell me what yall think. Am I on the right path? What changes and what do I need to look out for.
